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So today (or possibly over a longer period of time, surfacing from my ocean of subconsciousness only today) I had some sort of realization: I'm resistant to change.
It's always been one of my great character flaws, to make use of english class rhetoric, but until now I've been able to ignore it to some extent without consequence. Not so anymore.
As if someone were listening in on my thoughts, I happened upon a book of inspirational quotes while sitting on the toilet, no less. Flipping through it, one of the pictures caught my eye. The page opposite read quite frankly "Only the wisest and the stupidest never change." (It's definitely the simplistic occurrences like this that reaffirm my faith in God.)
I reflected on this statement for a while, figuring (at least by my judgment) that I fit into neither category. It did strike me as ironic, however, that by fearing change, I could only be falling faster toward the latter of the two.
As for the title of "wisest," it is my belief that it cannot be rightfully bestowed on anyone, for the measure of this kind of knowledge is so multifaceted. In fact, in order to be dubbed "the wisest" shouldn't one have to possess complete knowledge of everything? of all the world's mysteries? If there is such a person, what a terribly tragic life he or she must lead. What, then, is there to live for? Human nature strives on the unknown. Though we may not always embrace it, and at times shun it, the unknown keeps life interesting- adding a zest only achievable through such a means.
Change is part of the unknown. I suppose then, I'm only human to fear it. What I need now is to convince myself of the other half; of the much-needed mystery, and the zest that comes with it.
There's no doubt that not all change is for the better, that's for sure, and this is probably the reason for fear. To overcome the inevitable hardships, a change of perception is needed. A positive light on any situation instantly slashes it's malevolent demeanor down to a more manageable level, for it truly is "all how you look at it." Anything left from there must be put to good use. Rather than mourning a thorn in the side, use it to slash through the jungle; rather than curse the rock upon which a toe is stubbed, use it as a stepping stone to something better. I have no doubt there is such a thing; for those who choose to see it, there's always good. Something new, different, and perhaps uncomfortable at first, but always good.
I'd say it's also fair to assume that not all good is immediately recognizable, for only God sees the entire picture. The other option, however, is never good...not now, not later. That option is regret; regret over something we could've changed, chosen, or lived for. And regret, to me, is one of the worst things to live with, period. It plagues the soul forever, and although it can probably be learned from, it can never be purged completely.
So here's to me hopefully being able to take change in stride, and with more ease than has been present thusfar; that I may know change as part of life here on earth. Let me realize that change only makes living life that much more exciting. And finally, I hope that I may journey without further regret.
It's always been one of my great character flaws, to make use of english class rhetoric, but until now I've been able to ignore it to some extent without consequence. Not so anymore.
As if someone were listening in on my thoughts, I happened upon a book of inspirational quotes while sitting on the toilet, no less. Flipping through it, one of the pictures caught my eye. The page opposite read quite frankly "Only the wisest and the stupidest never change." (It's definitely the simplistic occurrences like this that reaffirm my faith in God.)
I reflected on this statement for a while, figuring (at least by my judgment) that I fit into neither category. It did strike me as ironic, however, that by fearing change, I could only be falling faster toward the latter of the two.
As for the title of "wisest," it is my belief that it cannot be rightfully bestowed on anyone, for the measure of this kind of knowledge is so multifaceted. In fact, in order to be dubbed "the wisest" shouldn't one have to possess complete knowledge of everything? of all the world's mysteries? If there is such a person, what a terribly tragic life he or she must lead. What, then, is there to live for? Human nature strives on the unknown. Though we may not always embrace it, and at times shun it, the unknown keeps life interesting- adding a zest only achievable through such a means.
Change is part of the unknown. I suppose then, I'm only human to fear it. What I need now is to convince myself of the other half; of the much-needed mystery, and the zest that comes with it.
There's no doubt that not all change is for the better, that's for sure, and this is probably the reason for fear. To overcome the inevitable hardships, a change of perception is needed. A positive light on any situation instantly slashes it's malevolent demeanor down to a more manageable level, for it truly is "all how you look at it." Anything left from there must be put to good use. Rather than mourning a thorn in the side, use it to slash through the jungle; rather than curse the rock upon which a toe is stubbed, use it as a stepping stone to something better. I have no doubt there is such a thing; for those who choose to see it, there's always good. Something new, different, and perhaps uncomfortable at first, but always good.
I'd say it's also fair to assume that not all good is immediately recognizable, for only God sees the entire picture. The other option, however, is never good...not now, not later. That option is regret; regret over something we could've changed, chosen, or lived for. And regret, to me, is one of the worst things to live with, period. It plagues the soul forever, and although it can probably be learned from, it can never be purged completely.
So here's to me hopefully being able to take change in stride, and with more ease than has been present thusfar; that I may know change as part of life here on earth. Let me realize that change only makes living life that much more exciting. And finally, I hope that I may journey without further regret.