This will be my longest entry... alot is on my mind
sooo....
IM FUCKING PISSED!!!
I FUCKING HATE BANK OF AMERICA!!!
I FUCKING HATE CHECKING ACCOUNTS!!!
this is the exact reason why i didnt want one in the first place.
ITS FUCKING GAY!!!
I got paid yesterday, 311.45
then i deposited 274 of it, because i had to withdrawl 40
then i went to Walgreens to get birthday cards and another 20
then i get home, and i have NEGATIVE 30$ in my account
and a process transaction FEE of 10$...
now 10$? wow not that much
BUT THATS 10 FUCKING BUCKS THAT I WORKED FOR; SO THEY CAN TAKE IT OUT IN FEES!?!?!!? WHAT FUCKING FEE?!
An over drawn account fee...
I PUT 300 BUCKS IN!!!!
NOT TO MENTION THE 20 I HAD LEFT IN THERE!!!
so banks are fucking stupid
i dont have access to my money till tuesday...
and military ball is saturday...
and i still dont have my shirt or tie...
and i work all week...
so this is fucking gay
i swear to god im not doing this shit again
im cashing all of my checks, hads down, im not pulling this shit anymore
thats bullshit
when i deposit money, I WANT IT AVAILABLE!!!!
not when ever its convienant for them!
bullshit
god that pisses me off
neways last nights party...
there were 2 of them
both sucked
Kerrah's party was... for lack of a better word, lame
im sure everyone there had a blast, but me
because there were like 30 people there, and i only knew one of them
and that was Kelly, i dont really know Kerrah... i dont even know why i went
but Kerrah introduced me to this girl,
ive never found a black girl attractive before... it was strange
shes pretty cool, her names ashley, shes a junior at HHS... one out of 3 HHS students there
Me Kellie and Ashely were the only people from HHS, other schools were QUEST!!?? and NEMITZ!?!?
It was wierd.
The party was nothing but dancing, and Kerrah (whos really hot) Dancing like a mad black women.
I never saw kerrah like that
then again, i never saw kerrah more then 4 times in 2 months.
Ashley, she has a boyfriend...
i find it pretty funny...
DILLION DOMINO!!!
lol
Little-D is dating Ashley
it was pretty nice to meet someone there who i could talk to
i pretty much hung around kelly and ashley all night
everyone else was kinda... in there own group.
Then i went to Keevs for Chris's party
i was hungry as fuck so i had to go to Tacobell for food
then we got back to keevs and the party split
ohwell
it was alright
This Friday is Company Competition...
and my last day as Battalion Commander...
im going to cry
just thinking about it...
im getting tearie-eyed
Saturday is Military Ball
my Military Ball
im going to cry
i hope those two days everything plans out...
i hope it all works
i want to out with a bang
i want people to look on it and go
WOW, lets do that again...
but i doubt that will happen
ofcourse they will want to do it agian...
but not because of anything spectacular...
but because they get out of school
May 19th will be my last day at Panda Express...
i dont know why... but for somereason i dont want to quit...
i like it there... ALOT...
the people are great... the food isnt bad
everyday i go in not wanting to work, i always leave happy
Jin Jin told me she didnt want me to leave :)
it made me happy, and sad at the same time
im going to miss it there...
i told them i was going to steal the Pappas Express sign...
i will do it too
it will be hung on my wall, in rememberance...
i dont know why but i feel a sudden urge of remourse
i dont want to leave what i have come to love...
but i know i want to be a Marine...
theres no question of that
i dont want to live at panda...
but i enjoy the company
theres no one yelling at me
i pretty much own the place
i could literaly do what ever i want...
but the Marine Corps wont allow that
i think thats what i want the most
in panda, im there, i know the rutine...
i can do anything they ask of me to do...
so i get away with anything...
the Marine Corps will be the same way...
only i wont get away with shit
the second i know everything...
they will beat it out of me
May 20th is Graduation
1900 hrs. UofH campus
the end is coming
June 26th is Ship off
ill be leaving to be a Marine
the begining...
"the 1000 mile journey, starts with a single step" - ghandi
June 26th
i will take my first step.
September 22nd
graduation
i will be honored as a member of the most elite fighting force in the world...
a coldblooded killer...
a United States Marine...
a Devil Dog...
a soldier...
i cant wait.
So far i know alot of people that will show up for my graduation...
hopefully
My mom/step father/sister/brother in law/brother/dad/dads girlfriend/Janies Family :)/Casey & maybe her family/my grandpa (hopefully)
Janie told me that her mom is taking Janie to come see me graduate...
i dont know what im going to do...
Im graduating boot on Ryans birthday, it would be cool if him and the others came out...
i doubt they will though
i found the best song in the world...
its about a guy; whos inlove with a girl...
only shes using him...
and he never tells her how he feels because hes afraid he will "blow it"...
im just going to post some of the lyrics because they are great...
BRAND NEW LYRICS - "Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades"
She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth.
He's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time," he says.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her
exactly what it really feels like.
He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he tells her is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her,
but she's probably only looking for se-...
So much more than he could ever give.
A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He waits for it to end
and for the aching in his guts to subside.
Great song
i love it..
its powerful
the music behind it is great too...
i want to paintball
i need to paintball
i want to get out and shoot some shit
i want to camp
i want to hunt
i want to go to boot camp
i need to get off of here before i keep writing and no one reads it
much love
jMFp
IM FUCKING PISSED!!!
I FUCKING HATE BANK OF AMERICA!!!
I FUCKING HATE CHECKING ACCOUNTS!!!
this is the exact reason why i didnt want one in the first place.
ITS FUCKING GAY!!!
I got paid yesterday, 311.45
then i deposited 274 of it, because i had to withdrawl 40
then i went to Walgreens to get birthday cards and another 20
then i get home, and i have NEGATIVE 30$ in my account
and a process transaction FEE of 10$...
now 10$? wow not that much
BUT THATS 10 FUCKING BUCKS THAT I WORKED FOR; SO THEY CAN TAKE IT OUT IN FEES!?!?!!? WHAT FUCKING FEE?!
An over drawn account fee...
I PUT 300 BUCKS IN!!!!
NOT TO MENTION THE 20 I HAD LEFT IN THERE!!!
so banks are fucking stupid
i dont have access to my money till tuesday...
and military ball is saturday...
and i still dont have my shirt or tie...
and i work all week...
so this is fucking gay
i swear to god im not doing this shit again
im cashing all of my checks, hads down, im not pulling this shit anymore
thats bullshit
when i deposit money, I WANT IT AVAILABLE!!!!
not when ever its convienant for them!
bullshit
god that pisses me off
neways last nights party...
there were 2 of them
both sucked
Kerrah's party was... for lack of a better word, lame
im sure everyone there had a blast, but me
because there were like 30 people there, and i only knew one of them
and that was Kelly, i dont really know Kerrah... i dont even know why i went
but Kerrah introduced me to this girl,
ive never found a black girl attractive before... it was strange
shes pretty cool, her names ashley, shes a junior at HHS... one out of 3 HHS students there
Me Kellie and Ashely were the only people from HHS, other schools were QUEST!!?? and NEMITZ!?!?
It was wierd.
The party was nothing but dancing, and Kerrah (whos really hot) Dancing like a mad black women.
I never saw kerrah like that
then again, i never saw kerrah more then 4 times in 2 months.
Ashley, she has a boyfriend...
i find it pretty funny...
DILLION DOMINO!!!
lol
Little-D is dating Ashley
it was pretty nice to meet someone there who i could talk to
i pretty much hung around kelly and ashley all night
everyone else was kinda... in there own group.
Then i went to Keevs for Chris's party
i was hungry as fuck so i had to go to Tacobell for food
then we got back to keevs and the party split
ohwell
it was alright
This Friday is Company Competition...
and my last day as Battalion Commander...
im going to cry
just thinking about it...
im getting tearie-eyed
Saturday is Military Ball
my Military Ball
im going to cry
i hope those two days everything plans out...
i hope it all works
i want to out with a bang
i want people to look on it and go
WOW, lets do that again...
but i doubt that will happen
ofcourse they will want to do it agian...
but not because of anything spectacular...
but because they get out of school
May 19th will be my last day at Panda Express...
i dont know why... but for somereason i dont want to quit...
i like it there... ALOT...
the people are great... the food isnt bad
everyday i go in not wanting to work, i always leave happy
Jin Jin told me she didnt want me to leave :)
it made me happy, and sad at the same time
im going to miss it there...
i told them i was going to steal the Pappas Express sign...
i will do it too
it will be hung on my wall, in rememberance...
i dont know why but i feel a sudden urge of remourse
i dont want to leave what i have come to love...
but i know i want to be a Marine...
theres no question of that
i dont want to live at panda...
but i enjoy the company
theres no one yelling at me
i pretty much own the place
i could literaly do what ever i want...
but the Marine Corps wont allow that
i think thats what i want the most
in panda, im there, i know the rutine...
i can do anything they ask of me to do...
so i get away with anything...
the Marine Corps will be the same way...
only i wont get away with shit
the second i know everything...
they will beat it out of me
May 20th is Graduation
1900 hrs. UofH campus
the end is coming
June 26th is Ship off
ill be leaving to be a Marine
the begining...
"the 1000 mile journey, starts with a single step" - ghandi
June 26th
i will take my first step.
September 22nd
graduation
i will be honored as a member of the most elite fighting force in the world...
a coldblooded killer...
a United States Marine...
a Devil Dog...
a soldier...
i cant wait.
So far i know alot of people that will show up for my graduation...
hopefully
My mom/step father/sister/brother in law/brother/dad/dads girlfriend/Janies Family :)/Casey & maybe her family/my grandpa (hopefully)
Janie told me that her mom is taking Janie to come see me graduate...
i dont know what im going to do...
Im graduating boot on Ryans birthday, it would be cool if him and the others came out...
i doubt they will though
i found the best song in the world...
its about a guy; whos inlove with a girl...
only shes using him...
and he never tells her how he feels because hes afraid he will "blow it"...
im just going to post some of the lyrics because they are great...
BRAND NEW LYRICS - "Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades"
She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth.
He's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time," he says.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her
exactly what it really feels like.
He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he tells her is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her,
but she's probably only looking for se-...
So much more than he could ever give.
A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He waits for it to end
and for the aching in his guts to subside.
Great song
i love it..
its powerful
the music behind it is great too...
i want to paintball
i need to paintball
i want to get out and shoot some shit
i want to camp
i want to hunt
i want to go to boot camp
i need to get off of here before i keep writing and no one reads it
much love
jMFp