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So, its really bad when old feelings start to re-emerge. I guess it isn't bad, it's just really bad timing right now. It took me a really long time to realize how much I screwed up when I broke up with him. And now, many many months later he's finally moved on and started dating a new girl. I'm still in love with him. I think its ridiculous for me to still be in love with him almost a year after the fact but he was my world for a long time. I was confused and now I'm not. I want him back but he's finally starting to be happy with another girl and we just can't be together right now. I don't know how to give up. I don't know how to stop loving him and that really upsets me. Hm, someday soon maybe things will get better or he will be with me again. But i don't know with myself for now. Cry, pray, scream, or a combination of the three. I'm so emotional I may throw up.