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dark water epiphanies
and violent winds of change.
tears fall through slits in my fingers.
crash against lavendar pillows and i cannot save them.
i create them.
salt water kisses reach my tongue
to mix and run through me
like drinking the blues.
hearts swell up one million sizes too big
because they're full of tiny pins.
prick and bleed
tear it all to hell.
nothing comes without its price.
there is chaos
chaos inside of me
enough to destroy worlds
move mountains and burn bridges.
and i'm all streched out
because it keeps pushing it's way out of me
but there's no escape.
no escape and trust me,
i've tried finding it.
no luck in life
and no courage to end it.
i live in a very strange place.
a very strange place
inside my mind.
my hea(r)d(t) still hurts in ways that never go away.
at least they haven't yet.