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[j_j_j_jenna]

i think you got me sick, boy.
boo.

john comes down tomorrow.
hangs with dani davis, the coolest co-worker.

govt is amazing.

there is a feeling inside of me that i cannot describe
i cannot describe it because the only thing i can think of doesn't even come close.
there are worms inside me because part of me is decaying
dead or dying.
but there is a passion that releases pin pricks of anticipation
and it feels so good.
good like tears in rain feels good.
cleansing.
i don't know whether its good or bad.
depends on the second.
depends on how much i'm thinking about seeing you tomorrow.
and that is terrible.
i cannot do this.
i have to stop myself.
i have to.
butGodidon'twantto.
but i know that its just going to fail like all the rest.
the worms can't devour all of me anymore.

fuck what i say.
you make me feel wonderful.
and you are always trying to make me happy.
and i love leaning over your shoulder.
and messaging and commenting on myspace at the same time.
at the very least, i have one of the greatest new friends i can ask for.
you're amazing.
i'm very lucky.
you destroyed the decay tonight.