i am doing what julie did.
winter:
peirogies, can you get a taxi from ypsilanti to detroit? florida, the white tips of the waves and wet jeans. tennessee sunrise, i am in love with everything i see. diet pepsi all day, teriyaki jerky, plain bagels. i don't want to talk about this, you won't see me anymore. four loko. party city. drawing on the table, smoking in the house. finding all of our old videos from high school, cookie party and girl's night. she's so high by tal bachman every day. upsidedowndogs.com, 99 cent coney month. animal collective, geo prizm party time fun edition. glitter everywhere. morgan, hair, leopard print. new relationships, new friends, new things starting. kevin.
spring:
bon iver. shaq's twitter. going to visit kevin for the first time, rats. weezer, springsteen, michigan, sunshine, arnold schwarzenegger, beards, the moon, pizza, rats, sadie, new yellow shoes, fairlawn, bike rides, lake orion is melting, staying up way too late. anders, babies, babies and rats together. ymca, potbellies. getting a portable CD player for geo prizm. intervention. bluegrass. taking vicodin every day. seeing animal collective, andi's hits mix CD which is still in my car, when andi puked from chugging that beer and then running down the steps.
summer:
new york. I always miss you kyle. swine flu. internships. love and beds and legs. dresses and dinner and lights. kisses and kisses and always kisses. two internships, dominic, new people, new friends. twilight. new equipment new skills. doing medical studies for money. beach days. twin peaks nightmares. the jonas brothers. blogspot, new ideas. the brooklyn bridge at night. I miss driving. IMPOSE. around the world in 80 days, taco nights. fight nights, laundry nights. sleeping next to you every night, waking up next to you every morning. holding hands on subway cars. complicated sandals, trying to figure out where I am, kaity in the big city. lodge, lemonade with blueberry stoli and real blueberries. quitting smoking. when i put 8 lemons in the ice water. drinking from mason jars, blue sheets. degrassi. law and order svu. coming home.
fall:
I am a senior in college but I don't feel like it. too many sad phone calls. losing a lot of weight, gaining and losing always. my mom. shooting really early every morning. visiting kevin back and forth. where the wild things are. hanging out with alex again. and morgan. friends <3. starting smoking again, starting to drink coffee every day again. honda accord. houghton, 5 lbs of bacon, hardees, it is snowing in october. glee, tattoo when i was mad at you.
winter:
cold. always cold. stressed out. the goonies. john lennon unreleased tracks. noah is home, wolf hat. thinking about grad school. fucking everything up. homework every day. dan and adam's. jacqueline's home. christmas trees. losing track of time and dates. not calling. i am selfish. thanksgiving when i got to see you, things were good when we were together. fantastic mr. fox and everything about it. the hospital. my birthday, babies, a room full of strangers singing happy birthday. you look so happy in old pictures. the beatles movie marathon, seeing old friends and faces. tekkonkinkreet, breakfasts. trying to remember. going to the cemetary, giving back the roses that you gave me. drummers with blue eyes right? hockey. sad christmas. breaking up. things don't really ever make sense, you know? i'm in michigan and this is what michigan winter is supposed to feel like. i will love you until i can't feel my hands. cold feet, you can text now. annie the pup. two persian cats, they can't close their mouths. pie in the car. crying, bye bye blackbird. movies, you're not boring. bourbon. the whitney. music.
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?lived in new york.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't do those.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nope.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
no.
5. What countries did you visit?
I don't think I went to any foreign countries in 2009.
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
certainty. a future.
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
the entire summer.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
gettin internships and shit.
9. What was your biggest failure?
messing up this relationship, being jobless, moneyless.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i got really sick over the summer and couldn't eat but kept trying to eat meatball subs and then just kept getting more sick.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
i'm not sure. i really like my newest tattoo.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
not mine.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
meh. i don't know. nobody's i guess.
14. Where did most of your money go?
cigarettes. coffee. gas. film.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
the days where i'm able to sleep in, driving and listening to music. noah coming home.
16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
bowerbirds- northern lights
sharon van etten
anything by why or the hold steady
sing fang bous and seabear
heavy k- what would it be
john lennon- dear yoko
ola podrida
screaming females
old canes- early morning hymns
califone- michigan girls
damien jurado- ohio
the dylan version of moonshiner
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder? sadder
Older or wiser? both
Thinner or fatter? thinner
Richer or poorer? poorer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish I could have stayed stronger.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
I don't know. spending money on useless shit.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent Christmas at my parents house with my dad's side of the family. And then I went over to Lanes and watched everybody get way too drunk.
21. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
Mittenfest with Noah and Kaity and Dan.
22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
yes.
23. How many one-night stands?
zero.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Law and Order SVU, Intervention. all of the things I already liked. Glee was good.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't really hate anybody.
26. What was the best book you read?
I don't know. I reread a lot this year. finally finished Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides and that was really good.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I don't know. I guess all of the things kevin showed me. Damien Jurado was probably my best find though, or Ola Podrida.
28. What did you want and get?
everything I wanted, I got.
29. What did you want and not get?
nothing.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
fantastic mr. fox probably.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
21. I spent it at Kevin's mom's house. Chili blowout.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Staying in NYC.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
I got a little less lazy than I was last year. still lazy though.
34. What kept you sane?
morgan, jokes, kaity, cigarettes, school both kept me sane and stressed me out.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
ADRIEN BRODY and all of the beatles. every single one of them in hard days night.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
remember when obama banned cloves everywhere? hahaha.
37. Who did you miss?
kaity. kevin. kyle. morgan when i was in nyc.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
katie and dan von erck probably. they're great.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
Try to not think about it.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
the world looks fine.
peirogies, can you get a taxi from ypsilanti to detroit? florida, the white tips of the waves and wet jeans. tennessee sunrise, i am in love with everything i see. diet pepsi all day, teriyaki jerky, plain bagels. i don't want to talk about this, you won't see me anymore. four loko. party city. drawing on the table, smoking in the house. finding all of our old videos from high school, cookie party and girl's night. she's so high by tal bachman every day. upsidedowndogs.com, 99 cent coney month. animal collective, geo prizm party time fun edition. glitter everywhere. morgan, hair, leopard print. new relationships, new friends, new things starting. kevin.
spring:
bon iver. shaq's twitter. going to visit kevin for the first time, rats. weezer, springsteen, michigan, sunshine, arnold schwarzenegger, beards, the moon, pizza, rats, sadie, new yellow shoes, fairlawn, bike rides, lake orion is melting, staying up way too late. anders, babies, babies and rats together. ymca, potbellies. getting a portable CD player for geo prizm. intervention. bluegrass. taking vicodin every day. seeing animal collective, andi's hits mix CD which is still in my car, when andi puked from chugging that beer and then running down the steps.
summer:
new york. I always miss you kyle. swine flu. internships. love and beds and legs. dresses and dinner and lights. kisses and kisses and always kisses. two internships, dominic, new people, new friends. twilight. new equipment new skills. doing medical studies for money. beach days. twin peaks nightmares. the jonas brothers. blogspot, new ideas. the brooklyn bridge at night. I miss driving. IMPOSE. around the world in 80 days, taco nights. fight nights, laundry nights. sleeping next to you every night, waking up next to you every morning. holding hands on subway cars. complicated sandals, trying to figure out where I am, kaity in the big city. lodge, lemonade with blueberry stoli and real blueberries. quitting smoking. when i put 8 lemons in the ice water. drinking from mason jars, blue sheets. degrassi. law and order svu. coming home.
fall:
I am a senior in college but I don't feel like it. too many sad phone calls. losing a lot of weight, gaining and losing always. my mom. shooting really early every morning. visiting kevin back and forth. where the wild things are. hanging out with alex again. and morgan. friends <3. starting smoking again, starting to drink coffee every day again. honda accord. houghton, 5 lbs of bacon, hardees, it is snowing in october. glee, tattoo when i was mad at you.
winter:
cold. always cold. stressed out. the goonies. john lennon unreleased tracks. noah is home, wolf hat. thinking about grad school. fucking everything up. homework every day. dan and adam's. jacqueline's home. christmas trees. losing track of time and dates. not calling. i am selfish. thanksgiving when i got to see you, things were good when we were together. fantastic mr. fox and everything about it. the hospital. my birthday, babies, a room full of strangers singing happy birthday. you look so happy in old pictures. the beatles movie marathon, seeing old friends and faces. tekkonkinkreet, breakfasts. trying to remember. going to the cemetary, giving back the roses that you gave me. drummers with blue eyes right? hockey. sad christmas. breaking up. things don't really ever make sense, you know? i'm in michigan and this is what michigan winter is supposed to feel like. i will love you until i can't feel my hands. cold feet, you can text now. annie the pup. two persian cats, they can't close their mouths. pie in the car. crying, bye bye blackbird. movies, you're not boring. bourbon. the whitney. music.
1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?lived in new york.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't do those.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nope.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
no.
5. What countries did you visit?
I don't think I went to any foreign countries in 2009.
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
certainty. a future.
7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
the entire summer.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
gettin internships and shit.
9. What was your biggest failure?
messing up this relationship, being jobless, moneyless.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i got really sick over the summer and couldn't eat but kept trying to eat meatball subs and then just kept getting more sick.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
i'm not sure. i really like my newest tattoo.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
not mine.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
meh. i don't know. nobody's i guess.
14. Where did most of your money go?
cigarettes. coffee. gas. film.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
the days where i'm able to sleep in, driving and listening to music. noah coming home.
16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
bowerbirds- northern lights
sharon van etten
anything by why or the hold steady
sing fang bous and seabear
heavy k- what would it be
john lennon- dear yoko
ola podrida
screaming females
old canes- early morning hymns
califone- michigan girls
damien jurado- ohio
the dylan version of moonshiner
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder? sadder
Older or wiser? both
Thinner or fatter? thinner
Richer or poorer? poorer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish I could have stayed stronger.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
I don't know. spending money on useless shit.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent Christmas at my parents house with my dad's side of the family. And then I went over to Lanes and watched everybody get way too drunk.
21. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
Mittenfest with Noah and Kaity and Dan.
22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
yes.
23. How many one-night stands?
zero.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Law and Order SVU, Intervention. all of the things I already liked. Glee was good.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't really hate anybody.
26. What was the best book you read?
I don't know. I reread a lot this year. finally finished Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides and that was really good.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I don't know. I guess all of the things kevin showed me. Damien Jurado was probably my best find though, or Ola Podrida.
28. What did you want and get?
everything I wanted, I got.
29. What did you want and not get?
nothing.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
fantastic mr. fox probably.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
21. I spent it at Kevin's mom's house. Chili blowout.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Staying in NYC.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
I got a little less lazy than I was last year. still lazy though.
34. What kept you sane?
morgan, jokes, kaity, cigarettes, school both kept me sane and stressed me out.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
ADRIEN BRODY and all of the beatles. every single one of them in hard days night.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
remember when obama banned cloves everywhere? hahaha.
37. Who did you miss?
kaity. kevin. kyle. morgan when i was in nyc.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
katie and dan von erck probably. they're great.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
Try to not think about it.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
the world looks fine.