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I promised Ike last night I'd have an update written today, so here I am attempting to find something to write about that's somewhat interesting.
I'm travelling around with Chelle for a while. Keeping her company and possibly joining her on stage for a few songs at a couple of shows. As soon as I arrived we were clinging to each other and talking a million miles an hour. Every now and then Josh will cast weird glances our way and shake his head. I'm pretty certain he thinks we're crazy. Oh well.
Taylor and I talked the other day. For days beforehand I'd been planning what I was going to say to him, but as soon as I saw him everything seemed to escape my mind. As I said to Chelle, it's almost as if I've pushed my feelings aside and I'm more concerned about him than anything else. He looked so lost and I just want to somehow give him back that spark he seemed to be missing.
I realize though, I'm not the right person to be helping him. There's too much history between us and I also don't want my actions being mistaken for anything other than friendship. While I still have feelings for him, I understand we're over and I'm not trying to get him back. It's all so complicated and confusing and I realize I'm most likely not making any sense because there's a lot I'm not saying.
Right now, he needs to sort a few things out for himself, I need to deal with my feelings, then once we've both done that we can re-establish the friendship we used to have.
I'm travelling around with Chelle for a while. Keeping her company and possibly joining her on stage for a few songs at a couple of shows. As soon as I arrived we were clinging to each other and talking a million miles an hour. Every now and then Josh will cast weird glances our way and shake his head. I'm pretty certain he thinks we're crazy. Oh well.
Taylor and I talked the other day. For days beforehand I'd been planning what I was going to say to him, but as soon as I saw him everything seemed to escape my mind. As I said to Chelle, it's almost as if I've pushed my feelings aside and I'm more concerned about him than anything else. He looked so lost and I just want to somehow give him back that spark he seemed to be missing.
I realize though, I'm not the right person to be helping him. There's too much history between us and I also don't want my actions being mistaken for anything other than friendship. While I still have feelings for him, I understand we're over and I'm not trying to get him back. It's all so complicated and confusing and I realize I'm most likely not making any sense because there's a lot I'm not saying.
Right now, he needs to sort a few things out for himself, I need to deal with my feelings, then once we've both done that we can re-establish the friendship we used to have.