Dec 06, 2002 21:43
I've been in PA with my friends for a few days now. I've had some time off, and technically I should be spending this time with my wife, but lately things havent exactly been running smoothly between the two of us. Tamyra thinks I should go see Dr. Phil about my relationship. I think I will just stick with Dr. Tamyra.
Speaking of Dr. Tamyra, I'm fucking glad Adriel's ass deleted because he was going to get it for hurting my best friend.
I remember when I was 17, I'd lay on the roof of my house in Doylestown and just count the stars until my head spun. It makes me feel at ease when I can lay down and count stars until my head spins. It makes me forget about everything else that's going on. It makes me forget that I'm in love with two people at the same time and that I'm married to one of them so I have obligations that are going to effect the way I think. I've always been a sucker for obligation. I love my wife which is why I hate everything about this situation and how fucked up it is. I'm hurting someone either way, but right now I'm hurting two people by stringing them along. God, you really don't know how much of an asshole I feel like.
Tonight the boys and I are going boozing. It's been awhile since I've done that, so I'm looking forward to it. I hope you're all having a better night than I am.
Hi Tamyra, I miss you too :-*