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boreDUMB.
im stuck in sick heavy love. stuck stuck stuck. loving someone more than they will ever love me...sick.
i feel lonely every other 6 seconds out of every day.
with the mongrel...things get very hott , and then so cold that theres nothing but dust , and then we warm back up into an inferno..i hate it,but only because i love him.
my insides feel like the sound of noise at a flatline_____________.
i get violently angry.
everyday.
last night i smashed my mirror with a hammer. broke a few cabinet doors. took it outside and destroyed the garbage can , recycle bin too. i stabbed a few walls with a kitchen knife before taking a retard amount of my sleep medication and going down
down
down
sleep.
my life is lacking adventure again.
my family keeps me locked up in this hell house to protect me from god knows what. ive done everything evil one could think of , fear is not in my vocabulary anymore. im looking for a saviour. to teach me how to worship.
to take me out of my cage and set me free.
im stuck in sick heavy love. stuck stuck stuck. loving someone more than they will ever love me...sick.
i feel lonely every other 6 seconds out of every day.
with the mongrel...things get very hott , and then so cold that theres nothing but dust , and then we warm back up into an inferno..i hate it,but only because i love him.
my insides feel like the sound of noise at a flatline_____________.
i get violently angry.
everyday.
last night i smashed my mirror with a hammer. broke a few cabinet doors. took it outside and destroyed the garbage can , recycle bin too. i stabbed a few walls with a kitchen knife before taking a retard amount of my sleep medication and going down
down
down
sleep.
my life is lacking adventure again.
my family keeps me locked up in this hell house to protect me from god knows what. ive done everything evil one could think of , fear is not in my vocabulary anymore. im looking for a saviour. to teach me how to worship.
to take me out of my cage and set me free.