FuCk£d!
so this week end has been a mad one!!!Friday was wicked as i sed!I went 2 the fewcett saturday saw mikey then went 2 ssr's,wahoo i am cool,lol!!I went 2 c lisa coz it was a bday which was nice as she seemed 2 really appreciate it!I ended up goin abit early coz my new house mate had moved in n i wanted 2 c him n get stoned!I text mikey 2 say 2 come round n he did!We sat up n got stoned wiv jaipe, dave(my new house mate),little paul came over n so did gav phil n richie!It was a bit hecktic so i chucked em out(except little paul coz he just wanted 2 crash!Then went 2 bed!I ended up sleeping wiv Mikey which i think may av fucked things up abit but hey lifes screwed!Pete phoned me at like 4am n came rnd wiv some girl called jenny(another one,ahh) n we all ended up staying up on speed!Damn me!!I sed i wudnt do drugs but i am weak n cause everyone else was doin them i wanted 2,im a fucken idiot wat can i say!That wasnt the worst of it yesterday i bought more speed 2 keep me awake n ended up taking acid 4 the first time,ahhhhhhhhh!I knew i shudnt av done it but this guy(one of mikeys mates)gave us it 4 free n mikey was so i wanted 2,moron!I spent all nite lost in my fucken head chasing a white rabbit!!!!!!It was good 2 start off wiv but as it went on i cudnt handle it!I got paraniod n thought everyone was taking the piss n sum ppl didnt help talking bout bad stuff thats happend n i just lost it!Anyway i never found the white rabbit n now i am sat in bed wiv mikey laid nxt 2 me poorly sick!I am NEVER doin that shit again!I did realise tho i dnt wanna b wiv him any more,which is good 4 my sanity i think!I do love n care 4 him but i think he is too broken 4 me which is sad coz id av liked it 2 work,oh well nxt plz,haha!!!!x