hmm updating and making the first entry....
Okay so as you see I deleted all the above entries. I am starting my life over and thought i would do the same here. The only reason that I am using this journal is cuz of Manders.. HE HE.... since she won't go read the greatest journal... LOL.
So like i said I am starting all over with my life, I am improving things in my life like I don't DRINK or PARTY anymore. I spend most of my time writing and thinking about things in life. Shawn and I are doing wonderful and we are planning on getting married and starting a family soon. I have been faithfully going to counseling twice a week and I love it, it gives me a chance to spout out the feelings that i used to hold inside of me till i exploded. I don't hang out with hardly anyone these day's I try to put my getting drunk and partying life behind me the only ones i really talk to anymore are Julie and of course Mandy when they call or email me. I don't spend alot of time on the net like I used to either. My brother and his girlfriend had their second child he was born december 21st, he weighed exactly 6 lbs. He looks just like his older brother when he was first born. His names Cory Ryan Knox, so now I have two wonderful nephews. Clayton Jamall and Cory Ryan.
Oh Yeah BTW, since October 2004 I have lost the total of 90 lbs on my own no diet, just lots of water, walking and watching what I ate. GO ME!
Shawn and I have been spending alot of time with my dad also, him and I are trying to recreate that father daughter bond that we never had (due to him thinking that alchol was more important than his daughter). We try to go over and spend at least one night every or everyother weekend. He is not doing so good in his old age, he turned 53 yesterday.
We also got some bad news from Ohio on Feburary 15th, Shawn's grandmother who had recently turned 84 passed away, I was sent into a severe depression cuz she was like a grandmother to me, she made me feel more welcome in the family than anyone else down there.
We'll I am off here and to bed so Comment already
Jeanie
So like i said I am starting all over with my life, I am improving things in my life like I don't DRINK or PARTY anymore. I spend most of my time writing and thinking about things in life. Shawn and I are doing wonderful and we are planning on getting married and starting a family soon. I have been faithfully going to counseling twice a week and I love it, it gives me a chance to spout out the feelings that i used to hold inside of me till i exploded. I don't hang out with hardly anyone these day's I try to put my getting drunk and partying life behind me the only ones i really talk to anymore are Julie and of course Mandy when they call or email me. I don't spend alot of time on the net like I used to either. My brother and his girlfriend had their second child he was born december 21st, he weighed exactly 6 lbs. He looks just like his older brother when he was first born. His names Cory Ryan Knox, so now I have two wonderful nephews. Clayton Jamall and Cory Ryan.
Oh Yeah BTW, since October 2004 I have lost the total of 90 lbs on my own no diet, just lots of water, walking and watching what I ate. GO ME!
Shawn and I have been spending alot of time with my dad also, him and I are trying to recreate that father daughter bond that we never had (due to him thinking that alchol was more important than his daughter). We try to go over and spend at least one night every or everyother weekend. He is not doing so good in his old age, he turned 53 yesterday.
We also got some bad news from Ohio on Feburary 15th, Shawn's grandmother who had recently turned 84 passed away, I was sent into a severe depression cuz she was like a grandmother to me, she made me feel more welcome in the family than anyone else down there.
We'll I am off here and to bed so Comment already
Jeanie