oops
wow. its been a super long time since i updated this. lol and i dont think im going to write about every day that i skipped.
i feel like i have completely lost touch with all of my friends in Naperville. I have no clue whats going on in ashleys life, ally's life, or even lea's... that scares me. they were like my best friends and i barely talk to them anymore. Its been like 3 months since i have seen any of them. thats sad.
im not exactly sure whats going on with me and jessica. all i know for sure is that these past 3 days have been exactly what i have wanted. i have been spending more time with her than i used to. i really hope she will take me back but at this point, i have no idea whats going to happen.
school sucks. i hate it. i cant wait to graduate. ya, its going to be hard to walk away from the same people i have been with for the past 4 years and i probably wont see most of them again. it really sucks cuz a bunch of them are awesome people. im going to miss eveyone so much. but, on the other hand, i cant wait to start over in college. i want new friends. i want new things in my life but there are certain things and people that i know i need to hold on to.... like jessica. obviously, im not ready to give up with her. if we do get back together, i know its going to be hard. once july hits, i'll be gone pretty much until i go to UWGB. i have lots of camps that start at the end of july and end the same day i leave for africa. i kinda want to skip one camp just to spend another week in this town. its kinda funny that one minute, u can completely hate a town. then the next, u find that ur scared to leave it and u love evrything about it. im scared to move out and go to college. i wont have my parents to lean on all the time if i need something. i wont have my own room. i wont have home cooked meals. im really starting to get scared.
ok so this entry is probably the longest i have ever written. sooooo.... basically the point is, i want jessica back, im scared to leave home, but im excited for college.
peace out buds
i feel like i have completely lost touch with all of my friends in Naperville. I have no clue whats going on in ashleys life, ally's life, or even lea's... that scares me. they were like my best friends and i barely talk to them anymore. Its been like 3 months since i have seen any of them. thats sad.
im not exactly sure whats going on with me and jessica. all i know for sure is that these past 3 days have been exactly what i have wanted. i have been spending more time with her than i used to. i really hope she will take me back but at this point, i have no idea whats going to happen.
school sucks. i hate it. i cant wait to graduate. ya, its going to be hard to walk away from the same people i have been with for the past 4 years and i probably wont see most of them again. it really sucks cuz a bunch of them are awesome people. im going to miss eveyone so much. but, on the other hand, i cant wait to start over in college. i want new friends. i want new things in my life but there are certain things and people that i know i need to hold on to.... like jessica. obviously, im not ready to give up with her. if we do get back together, i know its going to be hard. once july hits, i'll be gone pretty much until i go to UWGB. i have lots of camps that start at the end of july and end the same day i leave for africa. i kinda want to skip one camp just to spend another week in this town. its kinda funny that one minute, u can completely hate a town. then the next, u find that ur scared to leave it and u love evrything about it. im scared to move out and go to college. i wont have my parents to lean on all the time if i need something. i wont have my own room. i wont have home cooked meals. im really starting to get scared.
ok so this entry is probably the longest i have ever written. sooooo.... basically the point is, i want jessica back, im scared to leave home, but im excited for college.
peace out buds