I don't want to speak these words cause I don't want to make things any worse.
I love him enough to know that no matter who he sleeps with, he still loves me more than anyone. He'll never touch another girl the same way that he touches me and no other girl will ever know him as well as I do. Regardless, it's bullshit for him to say that sex is just sex. I don't care how much he says that he loves me and that I'm different. It's hard to believe that and I know that if he were in my shoes, the situation would probably be so much different. He gets more jealous than I do but at the same time he's more promiscuous than I am. I could fuck a million guys and it wouldn't change the way I feel about him, but he would still be hurt. I only expect him to understand that I'm still hurt. She's beautiful and probably one of the most intelligent women I've ever had the pleasure of speaking to so I do feel threatened by her. I know that they're good friends and when he says that's all they are, it relieves my fears if only temporarily. I believe everything he says to me. Maybe that's a weakness and maybe I'm an idiot. He's just the only one I can ever be with. There just isn't anyone else, that's impossible. It's been almost two years and it's not something that I'm ready to let go of yet. Or ever for that matter. I'm wearing this ring and keeping this promise for that reason. I don't know what to say, really.