awash with emotion
First, I'd like to say: My mouth hurts from using English-speaking muscles.
Incroyable!
How can I begin to express everything? Two languages won't even begin to offer me enough choices in these subtle vocabularic nuances! I'm truly a blessed person. Something else I had to throw in there for these feelings.. Yow!
Here's what lies at the tip of the iceburg...
I just got home from France. I lived there for about four months, a time in which I became pretty close to bilingual and made friends from numerous countries all over the place. I realize I wish the world was really smaller so that everyone I love can be just that much closer, and also because I cannot comprehend the massivity of the earth's true largeness.
I just spent the last few days of this week at Westminster College with my lov, my r00mie, Sky. I ate at El Canelo's for the first time and was truly a foreigner. I had a most fantastic conversation about the PeaceCorps with a girl doing some oil painting. I walked through little snowy New Wilmington and mingled with the locals at their places of business. I had a REALLY QUIET DANCE PARTY and snowy appetizers with lov-ly r00mie.. (Pictures to follow later!!) I began to learn a great song on guitar.. (Such great song!) I received amazing hugs from dear old chums I had not seen in quite a long while. I chatted on AIM! I watched old skool television. I gave a poor demonstration of my increased tolerance. I got yelled at by my neighbors for supposedly making lots of noise, then they awoke me rudely this morning at 8:13. Ugh. I visited Peggy Cox, kind mentor and mandatory advisor, who upon the sight of me immediately exclaimed, You must be ready to head off to France!.... Double ugh. Peu importe. I also got to pay the Titan Card Meal Plan Price instead of the Cash price because I only had $5.09 for that salad. Thanks, Sodexho!
I just got off the phone with my brother.. for about the fourth time in the past twenty minutes or less. Guess who went to Happy Hour!! It was amazing. My brother, truly, the real thing, Adam, AJ, what have you. He called to remind me he's coming home on Sunday and wanted to suggest that we eat out at the Italian Villa in Ambridge. Or possibly the Hot Dog Shoppe. Oh heck, why not both?? We also discussed such great things as hooking up our computers to exchange MP3 awesomeness, the current status and score of the Penguin's game, his top two favorite songs and music videos (Take On Me and Video Killed the Radio Star), the amazing buffet food at the place with Happy Hour, his newfound obsession with New Wave Arcade and how I will be going up immediately once I'm 21 to partake in the fun and ridiculously awesome music scene, the job he's working tomorrow to get paid lots and lots, and how very very hard he's worked on papers and finals the last week and a half. I am so proud of that boy. I love my brother. He's amazing. I can't believe he called, but then I realized, Wow, he is under the influence. Even better! He warned that he'd keep phoning to bother me all night. I think it's a fantastic idea. I miss him and I'm entirely too excited that he's coming home in just two days.
I just realized a lot of things quickly. I know what I want and I know what I don't want, but I really have no idea beyond that, deeper than that, on what I want to do, what I want to become, what I don't want to put up with anymore? I dunno.. I don't really want to ramble, but in doing some catch-up reading in the old LJs of some prior acquaintances (take no offense if you think it's true) I suppose this sort of rambling is acceptable and courant in LJ land. Another thing for LJ land.. survey quizzie extravaganzas! Here's one now..
~January~
1. did you have a new year's resolution this year?
i don't think i ever have done that.
2.Who kissed you at midnight?
lots of friends, and the awesome music of rusted r00t.
3. does it snow where you live?
yes!! it's awesome!
4.Do you like hot chocolate?
absolutely adore it.
5. have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop?
why would i go when i can see it on TV?
~February~
1. who was your valentine in 2005?
i bought a box of cheap wal-mart puppy/kitty valentines and campus-mailed them to over 50 people, with cherry blow-pops included!!
2. what did your valentine get you?
i don't think i got anything back.. i really just love hugs.
3. when you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?
uhmm.. i almost still do?
~March~
1. are you Irish?
scottish is close..
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?
i drank something sour-apple'y..
3.what did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2005?
uhh.. yeah
~April~
1. Do you like the rain?
rain rocks my socks.
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?
don't even remember
3. do you get tons of candy on easter?
maybe not TONS, but a decent amount of reese's cups. my grandma threw together a basket with really really cheap chocolates in bunny foils, and also some random almost useful stuff like a shoe shine kit. wtf!
~May~
1. What's your favorite kind of flower?
daisies!!!!!
2. Do you like the spring?
as much as i like fall and winter.
3. Finish the phrase: April showers bring may flowers, what do may flowers bring?
...pilgrims!
4. What would you think of as a spring color?
green. (duh.)
~June~
1. What year did you graduate from school?
2003
2. Did you go on a Vacation?
last summer?? uhh i spent a week in erie.. it was amazing!
~July~
1. What did you do on the 4th of July?
celebrated my cousin's 8th birthday, the 5th of July as it were.
2. do you go on any vacations during this month?
absolutely not. for a week or so i worked three jobs. the rest of the summer i worked two jobs.
~August~
1. Did you do anything special to end your summer?
i had a party to say goodbye and give/get hugs to prepare me for being away from everyone.
2. what was your favorite summer memory of '05?
driving with brutus!
3. do you go swimming a lot in the summer?
at lake erie, once
4. do you go to the beach a lot?
LATE august i ended up in cannes, france... hehehe
~September~
1. Did you attend school/college in '05?
i was a student at the collège international de cannes.
2. who is/was your favorite teacher?
éric bischoff
3. do you like fall better than summer?
absolutely.. i dislike hot weather. but this year, i had no fall.. it was too nice in cannes. the leaves stayed up!
~October~
1. what was your favorite halloween costume ever?
i highly enjoyed being the tooth fairy in kindergarten.
2. what is your favorite candy?
reese's pieces or cups.. i also love snickers bars.
3. what did you dress up like this year?
i tried to dress up and ended up being sort of a zombie.. wearing an art apron. i made all the fake blood and bruises and gross things with my own art supplies, including chalks and watercolors.. it was too realistic, i'm told.
~November~
1. whose house do you usually go to for thanksgiving?
aww. this year i was away.. but my families go to aunts' houses. when i was a child it was at my grandparents', but now they're too old to have a turkey in the oven at the house.. which i think is a big lie.
2. Do you like stuffing?
i never eat it. therefore couldn't tell you.
3. what are you thankful for?
i'm thankful for an awful lot. (good answer)
~December~
1. do you celebrate Christmas?
hallelujah!
2. have you ever been kissed under mistletoe?
by my mommy... aww. childh00d.
3. what do you want this year for Christmas?
i got a new coat which i needed pretty badly according to momma.. but i really just want a game of backgammon.
4. what's the best present you ever got for Christmas?
wow.. i have no idea.
5. Do you like cold weather?
loooove it! i'm glad to be home in PA.
:-)
Beyond that, I've got more on my mind that I'm having trouble expressing as of this moment. Le sigh..
I'll get back to ya on that one.
Incroyable!
How can I begin to express everything? Two languages won't even begin to offer me enough choices in these subtle vocabularic nuances! I'm truly a blessed person. Something else I had to throw in there for these feelings.. Yow!
Here's what lies at the tip of the iceburg...
I just got home from France. I lived there for about four months, a time in which I became pretty close to bilingual and made friends from numerous countries all over the place. I realize I wish the world was really smaller so that everyone I love can be just that much closer, and also because I cannot comprehend the massivity of the earth's true largeness.
I just spent the last few days of this week at Westminster College with my lov, my r00mie, Sky. I ate at El Canelo's for the first time and was truly a foreigner. I had a most fantastic conversation about the PeaceCorps with a girl doing some oil painting. I walked through little snowy New Wilmington and mingled with the locals at their places of business. I had a REALLY QUIET DANCE PARTY and snowy appetizers with lov-ly r00mie.. (Pictures to follow later!!) I began to learn a great song on guitar.. (Such great song!) I received amazing hugs from dear old chums I had not seen in quite a long while. I chatted on AIM! I watched old skool television. I gave a poor demonstration of my increased tolerance. I got yelled at by my neighbors for supposedly making lots of noise, then they awoke me rudely this morning at 8:13. Ugh. I visited Peggy Cox, kind mentor and mandatory advisor, who upon the sight of me immediately exclaimed, You must be ready to head off to France!.... Double ugh. Peu importe. I also got to pay the Titan Card Meal Plan Price instead of the Cash price because I only had $5.09 for that salad. Thanks, Sodexho!
I just got off the phone with my brother.. for about the fourth time in the past twenty minutes or less. Guess who went to Happy Hour!! It was amazing. My brother, truly, the real thing, Adam, AJ, what have you. He called to remind me he's coming home on Sunday and wanted to suggest that we eat out at the Italian Villa in Ambridge. Or possibly the Hot Dog Shoppe. Oh heck, why not both?? We also discussed such great things as hooking up our computers to exchange MP3 awesomeness, the current status and score of the Penguin's game, his top two favorite songs and music videos (Take On Me and Video Killed the Radio Star), the amazing buffet food at the place with Happy Hour, his newfound obsession with New Wave Arcade and how I will be going up immediately once I'm 21 to partake in the fun and ridiculously awesome music scene, the job he's working tomorrow to get paid lots and lots, and how very very hard he's worked on papers and finals the last week and a half. I am so proud of that boy. I love my brother. He's amazing. I can't believe he called, but then I realized, Wow, he is under the influence. Even better! He warned that he'd keep phoning to bother me all night. I think it's a fantastic idea. I miss him and I'm entirely too excited that he's coming home in just two days.
I just realized a lot of things quickly. I know what I want and I know what I don't want, but I really have no idea beyond that, deeper than that, on what I want to do, what I want to become, what I don't want to put up with anymore? I dunno.. I don't really want to ramble, but in doing some catch-up reading in the old LJs of some prior acquaintances (take no offense if you think it's true) I suppose this sort of rambling is acceptable and courant in LJ land. Another thing for LJ land.. survey quizzie extravaganzas! Here's one now..
~January~
1. did you have a new year's resolution this year?
i don't think i ever have done that.
2.Who kissed you at midnight?
lots of friends, and the awesome music of rusted r00t.
3. does it snow where you live?
yes!! it's awesome!
4.Do you like hot chocolate?
absolutely adore it.
5. have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop?
why would i go when i can see it on TV?
~February~
1. who was your valentine in 2005?
i bought a box of cheap wal-mart puppy/kitty valentines and campus-mailed them to over 50 people, with cherry blow-pops included!!
2. what did your valentine get you?
i don't think i got anything back.. i really just love hugs.
3. when you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?
uhmm.. i almost still do?
~March~
1. are you Irish?
scottish is close..
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?
i drank something sour-apple'y..
3.what did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2005?
uhh.. yeah
~April~
1. Do you like the rain?
rain rocks my socks.
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?
don't even remember
3. do you get tons of candy on easter?
maybe not TONS, but a decent amount of reese's cups. my grandma threw together a basket with really really cheap chocolates in bunny foils, and also some random almost useful stuff like a shoe shine kit. wtf!
~May~
1. What's your favorite kind of flower?
daisies!!!!!
2. Do you like the spring?
as much as i like fall and winter.
3. Finish the phrase: April showers bring may flowers, what do may flowers bring?
...pilgrims!
4. What would you think of as a spring color?
green. (duh.)
~June~
1. What year did you graduate from school?
2003
2. Did you go on a Vacation?
last summer?? uhh i spent a week in erie.. it was amazing!
~July~
1. What did you do on the 4th of July?
celebrated my cousin's 8th birthday, the 5th of July as it were.
2. do you go on any vacations during this month?
absolutely not. for a week or so i worked three jobs. the rest of the summer i worked two jobs.
~August~
1. Did you do anything special to end your summer?
i had a party to say goodbye and give/get hugs to prepare me for being away from everyone.
2. what was your favorite summer memory of '05?
driving with brutus!
3. do you go swimming a lot in the summer?
at lake erie, once
4. do you go to the beach a lot?
LATE august i ended up in cannes, france... hehehe
~September~
1. Did you attend school/college in '05?
i was a student at the collège international de cannes.
2. who is/was your favorite teacher?
éric bischoff
3. do you like fall better than summer?
absolutely.. i dislike hot weather. but this year, i had no fall.. it was too nice in cannes. the leaves stayed up!
~October~
1. what was your favorite halloween costume ever?
i highly enjoyed being the tooth fairy in kindergarten.
2. what is your favorite candy?
reese's pieces or cups.. i also love snickers bars.
3. what did you dress up like this year?
i tried to dress up and ended up being sort of a zombie.. wearing an art apron. i made all the fake blood and bruises and gross things with my own art supplies, including chalks and watercolors.. it was too realistic, i'm told.
~November~
1. whose house do you usually go to for thanksgiving?
aww. this year i was away.. but my families go to aunts' houses. when i was a child it was at my grandparents', but now they're too old to have a turkey in the oven at the house.. which i think is a big lie.
2. Do you like stuffing?
i never eat it. therefore couldn't tell you.
3. what are you thankful for?
i'm thankful for an awful lot. (good answer)
~December~
1. do you celebrate Christmas?
hallelujah!
2. have you ever been kissed under mistletoe?
by my mommy... aww. childh00d.
3. what do you want this year for Christmas?
i got a new coat which i needed pretty badly according to momma.. but i really just want a game of backgammon.
4. what's the best present you ever got for Christmas?
wow.. i have no idea.
5. Do you like cold weather?
loooove it! i'm glad to be home in PA.
:-)
Beyond that, I've got more on my mind that I'm having trouble expressing as of this moment. Le sigh..
I'll get back to ya on that one.