the first cut is the deepest
it's over for real now. everyone is confused and two of us are hurting but no one knows what is going on. there's so much to say and so little use for saying it. there is a possibility of us getting back together apparently...but not right now and no one can see the future right jon? looking too far ahead...so my decision is to wait. atleast a few monthes, at most until next year at which point there is not much hope left and not much point in waiting 3,000 miles away. i just want to say that i don't want to talk about it unless i bring it up (except if i'm talking to him obviously) because i can forget how much this hurts for anywhere from 30 seconds to maybe 10 minutes and that happens rarely enough that it shouldn't be interrupted. thanks