I don't know!
So... I come home today, to a family, that's here to talk about issues only. You know, I half expected us just to hang out and be a family and have fun, because I missed them. But I learned that my extended family from the philippines is here. They're the subject of big conflict in our family because of the whole cousin being pregnant at the age of 18 and this whole big mess. I guess, it's like a vacation. You know when you come back from vacation, the problems you left behind never really go away. It's like that. And speaking of which, I guess i'll sort of segue into my next subject what I really wanted to talk about.
So today in church was life changing. Maybe not at first, because working the computer makes things different and you don't really pay attention, because you're just listening to the pastor's key words to know when to change the slide. But at the same time, you hear everything he says, it just never really clicks, which is why most of the time, the people who do the video really don't want to. So here's the thing. This past week, or two, i've been dragging my girlfriend out and away from the light of God. I now that recently I know I had just turned my face back to good, but only to be trapped again by the devil. It seems that I've been a bad boyfriend spiritually. I learned a lot of things and today's message opened up my eyes to a lot of things. Not until I listened to Justine, and the CD again, that I actually listened to what our Pastor had to say. To let you know. The world is just one big spiritual battle. There's us and God vs. Satan/Lucifer/The Devil however you want to call him. There are so many things one has to look at just to see how much the devil over takes our mind. He's everywhere it's INSANE. Just be weary of things that you say, hear, and do. In a world like this, where darkness powers over people, the light is dim, but it still shines bright for those who wish to see it.. I wish to see it.
Becoming Christian was my choice, whether people believe it or not. I'm darn proud to say so too. There are something I need to work on and I know that to prove that I am Christian, but I don't need to prove it to you. Only for an audience of one. I'm changing. As Christians we need to be set apart from the rest of society, we can't be the name callers, the money mongers, the drunkards, the crowd followers. Hmmm...
So today I was listening to Relient K. For the first time in a long time, And i'm just gonna pick out quotes from this point on. Random ones, Relient K, doesn't matter. Okay Here We Go:
Relient K - Let it all out
This song right here, really hit home and hit it hard, it's pretty much exactly what I needed to hear in the car. This song is another example of hearing, but not listening. I knew all the lyrics, but my experiences today, led me to listen and to realize how much this song related to me.
"Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed
when the wound begins to bleed
cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need
and today I will trust you with confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency
and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there
and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength
and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength
and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me
reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you
and I know you know
you touched my life"
"Like a student searches through a mathbook to find how to solve a problem, a child of Christ must search the Bible to solve the problems of life"
-Artemis Bartholomew
"The beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair" - Relient K
- Why does everyone think that because things don't go their way, God doesn't love them, or believe that if God is so loving and Almighty and good, then why do bad things happen to good people. I can tell you why, but not today.
"That's your problem, That's everybody's problem, You keep looking up" -God, Bruce Almighty
- This quote is for real. Why do people look up to God when problems come. The problem here is. That God is with you... Down here. Right next to you. Always. and Forever. This goes along with...
"You want a miracle? Be The miracle" -God, Bruce Almighty I'm going to support this from the next almighty film, Evan Almighty, when God says "When someone prays for courage, does God give them courage? or the opportunity to be more courageous?"
- You see, when we want miracles to happen, we have to realize that miracles can happen, but it can't be ALL God, because the beauty of his grace is that it makes life not fair.
Fin
-=_J_a_D_=-
So today in church was life changing. Maybe not at first, because working the computer makes things different and you don't really pay attention, because you're just listening to the pastor's key words to know when to change the slide. But at the same time, you hear everything he says, it just never really clicks, which is why most of the time, the people who do the video really don't want to. So here's the thing. This past week, or two, i've been dragging my girlfriend out and away from the light of God. I now that recently I know I had just turned my face back to good, but only to be trapped again by the devil. It seems that I've been a bad boyfriend spiritually. I learned a lot of things and today's message opened up my eyes to a lot of things. Not until I listened to Justine, and the CD again, that I actually listened to what our Pastor had to say. To let you know. The world is just one big spiritual battle. There's us and God vs. Satan/Lucifer/The Devil however you want to call him. There are so many things one has to look at just to see how much the devil over takes our mind. He's everywhere it's INSANE. Just be weary of things that you say, hear, and do. In a world like this, where darkness powers over people, the light is dim, but it still shines bright for those who wish to see it.. I wish to see it.
Becoming Christian was my choice, whether people believe it or not. I'm darn proud to say so too. There are something I need to work on and I know that to prove that I am Christian, but I don't need to prove it to you. Only for an audience of one. I'm changing. As Christians we need to be set apart from the rest of society, we can't be the name callers, the money mongers, the drunkards, the crowd followers. Hmmm...
So today I was listening to Relient K. For the first time in a long time, And i'm just gonna pick out quotes from this point on. Random ones, Relient K, doesn't matter. Okay Here We Go:
Relient K - Let it all out
This song right here, really hit home and hit it hard, it's pretty much exactly what I needed to hear in the car. This song is another example of hearing, but not listening. I knew all the lyrics, but my experiences today, led me to listen and to realize how much this song related to me.
"Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed
when the wound begins to bleed
cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need
and today I will trust you with confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency
and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there
and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength
and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength
and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me
reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you
and I know you know
you touched my life"
"Like a student searches through a mathbook to find how to solve a problem, a child of Christ must search the Bible to solve the problems of life"
-Artemis Bartholomew
"The beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair" - Relient K
- Why does everyone think that because things don't go their way, God doesn't love them, or believe that if God is so loving and Almighty and good, then why do bad things happen to good people. I can tell you why, but not today.
"That's your problem, That's everybody's problem, You keep looking up" -God, Bruce Almighty
- This quote is for real. Why do people look up to God when problems come. The problem here is. That God is with you... Down here. Right next to you. Always. and Forever. This goes along with...
"You want a miracle? Be The miracle" -God, Bruce Almighty I'm going to support this from the next almighty film, Evan Almighty, when God says "When someone prays for courage, does God give them courage? or the opportunity to be more courageous?"
- You see, when we want miracles to happen, we have to realize that miracles can happen, but it can't be ALL God, because the beauty of his grace is that it makes life not fair.
Fin
-=_J_a_D_=-