And so it goes...
love is an accident...waiting to happen.
desire is a stranger...you think you know.
intimacy is a lie...we tell ourselves.
truth is a game...you play to win.
If you believe in love at first sight...you never stop looking.
Whoever said that life is just full of complications and interruptions could not have been more right. My life has suddenly & to my dismay, become one big jumble of dramatics. Where one ends, another begins. They all just flow together & I can't seem to piece them apart. These "episodes", if you will, are like just cooked spaghetti pasta, sticking together no matter how much you try to force them apart. I do know, though, that if I do try to separate each and every one of the complications that happen every day, I will send myself into oblivion- ultimately driving myself to possible insanity. You might soon be calling me "Bonkers McGee". Oh bother.
This has nothing to do with my professional career, in fact I feel as if I am at my peak; but rather, it has to do all with my personal life, which, as weird as it may sound, I feel like I have no control over. Do you ever get the feeling as if you are not yourself, mentally & emotionally? I mean, yes, physically we are all here, but other than that, there are days when I don't feel like Jason Isaacs. I don't feel like I should be doing what I'm doing...what I'm saying...how I'm acting...possibly how I look? It's a hard concept to grasp sometimes, but I try. It drives me mad, mind you, but I do think about it a lot.
Sometimes I wish I were young again. I see my young co-stars in the films that I am working in & I marvel at their innocence and care-free attitude (well...most of them. You know who you are.) No wait. Rewind. Before I even met these young adults, I saw the pure innocence in the eyes of my own child, Lily. She's very blunt, but that's okay because she's just a child. She really has nothing to worry about, except when Christmas is coming or when the next time she will get to have Jammy Dodgers as a snack. As I look out into the world & the current events, I wonder: What happened to the innocence in the world? Kids are growing up so fast nowadays, it saddens me. Before I know it, Lily will be a teenager, worrying about boys & make-up. Oh, what the future will bring...
Blimey, did I just go through my mid-life crisis?
To all who have been trying to get a hold of me, I apologize once again for my lack of, erm, response. I was shocked at how many messages I received on my answering machine that I was unaware of until an embarrassing number of days later. Toni, my dear, please forgive me. I did not mean to come off as too busy to talk to you; I really want to see you soon. I miss you. Gary, David & Alan: PINT? We should catch up on things. I feel as if I haven't seen you blokes in forever.
desire is a stranger...you think you know.
intimacy is a lie...we tell ourselves.
truth is a game...you play to win.
If you believe in love at first sight...you never stop looking.
Whoever said that life is just full of complications and interruptions could not have been more right. My life has suddenly & to my dismay, become one big jumble of dramatics. Where one ends, another begins. They all just flow together & I can't seem to piece them apart. These "episodes", if you will, are like just cooked spaghetti pasta, sticking together no matter how much you try to force them apart. I do know, though, that if I do try to separate each and every one of the complications that happen every day, I will send myself into oblivion- ultimately driving myself to possible insanity. You might soon be calling me "Bonkers McGee". Oh bother.
This has nothing to do with my professional career, in fact I feel as if I am at my peak; but rather, it has to do all with my personal life, which, as weird as it may sound, I feel like I have no control over. Do you ever get the feeling as if you are not yourself, mentally & emotionally? I mean, yes, physically we are all here, but other than that, there are days when I don't feel like Jason Isaacs. I don't feel like I should be doing what I'm doing...what I'm saying...how I'm acting...possibly how I look? It's a hard concept to grasp sometimes, but I try. It drives me mad, mind you, but I do think about it a lot.
Sometimes I wish I were young again. I see my young co-stars in the films that I am working in & I marvel at their innocence and care-free attitude (well...most of them. You know who you are.) No wait. Rewind. Before I even met these young adults, I saw the pure innocence in the eyes of my own child, Lily. She's very blunt, but that's okay because she's just a child. She really has nothing to worry about, except when Christmas is coming or when the next time she will get to have Jammy Dodgers as a snack. As I look out into the world & the current events, I wonder: What happened to the innocence in the world? Kids are growing up so fast nowadays, it saddens me. Before I know it, Lily will be a teenager, worrying about boys & make-up. Oh, what the future will bring...
Blimey, did I just go through my mid-life crisis?
To all who have been trying to get a hold of me, I apologize once again for my lack of, erm, response. I was shocked at how many messages I received on my answering machine that I was unaware of until an embarrassing number of days later. Toni, my dear, please forgive me. I did not mean to come off as too busy to talk to you; I really want to see you soon. I miss you. Gary, David & Alan: PINT? We should catch up on things. I feel as if I haven't seen you blokes in forever.