faith and patience.
now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. (Hebrews 11:1)
faith. it's such a difficult concept to grasp. as humans, it's hard to believe something when we cannot physically see or feel it. i think this is definitely something that i struggle with, and it bothers me because i want to have faith in God, and i know i should have faith in Him, but i just can't get my heart to believe it. i feel that it's difficult because in order to have faith, one must also have patience. the two go hand in hand with each other. patience is something that i really have to work on because i always want answers immediately. i want to know why something is happening. i want to know what i should do next. i want evidence to show that what i am asking for is being done. but answers don't come until miles down the road, and i end up becoming impatient.
i guess i've really tried to become more patient ever since i've come across this verse. i'm learning to wait, because i know the answer will come when the time is right for God, and He is never late. the only problem is, i never know when the time is right for Him. i usually expect Him to provide me with an answer when i need to make a decision, but i end up getting no answer, and then i don't know what to do. it's frustrating, but what i've really learned is that sometimes i just need to take that leap of faith and trust God with everything.
just like how i'm currently trying to decide what i should major in next year. i'm definitely drawn towards life science more than biochemistry, or any of the sciences alone, but i'm uncertain at the same time. i just feel that i've been thinking about this for so long that it's time to let go and i should just put it into God's hands. if He doesn't want me somewhere, He will give me answers by closing doors, and then i will know.
anyway. this verse actually came up again in my devos a couple of days ago, and in the devotional it said, "genuine faith puts its letter in the mailbox and lets go", and also, "once you have prayed, [...] you should not continue to be anxious." i was reading it, and i've come to realize that i still find it very hard to have faith, even though i understand it all in my mind. i was thinking, and i concluded that faith is not something that i will always have, and that's okay. the important thing is that i long to have faith in Him. i find that the times that i am most desperate for God are the times when He acts and performs His miracles. when He pulls you back up in your weakest moment, you experience His strength, and it just feels amazing.
faith. it's such a difficult concept to grasp. as humans, it's hard to believe something when we cannot physically see or feel it. i think this is definitely something that i struggle with, and it bothers me because i want to have faith in God, and i know i should have faith in Him, but i just can't get my heart to believe it. i feel that it's difficult because in order to have faith, one must also have patience. the two go hand in hand with each other. patience is something that i really have to work on because i always want answers immediately. i want to know why something is happening. i want to know what i should do next. i want evidence to show that what i am asking for is being done. but answers don't come until miles down the road, and i end up becoming impatient.
i guess i've really tried to become more patient ever since i've come across this verse. i'm learning to wait, because i know the answer will come when the time is right for God, and He is never late. the only problem is, i never know when the time is right for Him. i usually expect Him to provide me with an answer when i need to make a decision, but i end up getting no answer, and then i don't know what to do. it's frustrating, but what i've really learned is that sometimes i just need to take that leap of faith and trust God with everything.
just like how i'm currently trying to decide what i should major in next year. i'm definitely drawn towards life science more than biochemistry, or any of the sciences alone, but i'm uncertain at the same time. i just feel that i've been thinking about this for so long that it's time to let go and i should just put it into God's hands. if He doesn't want me somewhere, He will give me answers by closing doors, and then i will know.
anyway. this verse actually came up again in my devos a couple of days ago, and in the devotional it said, "genuine faith puts its letter in the mailbox and lets go", and also, "once you have prayed, [...] you should not continue to be anxious." i was reading it, and i've come to realize that i still find it very hard to have faith, even though i understand it all in my mind. i was thinking, and i concluded that faith is not something that i will always have, and that's okay. the important thing is that i long to have faith in Him. i find that the times that i am most desperate for God are the times when He acts and performs His miracles. when He pulls you back up in your weakest moment, you experience His strength, and it just feels amazing.