achoo...bless you, bless you, bless you, bless you, bless you, bless you, bless you, bless you...

[j5e1b3h]

Something in my life needs to change. Something big needs to happen that opens my eyes, that allows me to change and get out of this rut. I'm so happy during the day, and then at night when I'm laying in bed I feel so empty and alone, and when I feel like that it means its time to write in here. I'm sick and tired of just waiting for something to happen. I know its coming. I know that one day something will change my life, and that will be the catalyst needed to catapult me into happiness, freedom, etc. You can't get better until you've hit rock bottom. In a birthday book my friend Tory has, it says that I have potential and talent to do great things. However, I'm stuck in this rut that I'm in and I won't be able to get out until something happens in my life. Well fuck all you who think that it is a bunch of bullshit. I have been thinking along those lines for a long time, and so it only reassures what I thought. I just wish it would happen. I can't stand sitting still, waiting for life to happen. But I don't know what to do to get it going.

FUCK!!

I'm going to try to sleep I guess...I don't know...blah!