Day 19.
Silly little crushes.
How it leads me on to no end.
I know it may not happen. But I don't give a fuck.
But if it did... I just might fall in love.
I love him already as a friend, he tells me the same, but as a couple..
Could this be? I know someone will be confused/pissed.
But I understand. And I don't care.
This guy is amazing, and yeah I'm giddy.
I'm prolly making a mountain out of an ant pile.
Whatever, that's what happens when you crush on someone.
Everything matters, everything they say matters, everything they do matters.
Almost to a point of obsession, ANYTHING to let you know if they have feelings for you.
Jesus I sound crazy. But I see it already, my first real winter, being with him?
I could die, it would be so romantic. I know he can treat me right.
It may never happen, but hell, that's what dreams are for.
Until I wake up.
I digress, today I saw Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind.
And I cried, it dug into my heart and yanked out feelings I locked away.
Damn, if only I could erase my memory with Will. I wanted to love him, he only wanted sex.
Nevertheless, when me and Alexis looked at eachother, we started crying.
We were both laughing though, even though I was ready to start sobbing uncontrollably. I held it in though.
5 MOTHERFUCKIN STARS.
It's the only movie that made me want to sob like that.
Geez! I want to be in love. And play Starfox 64.
How it leads me on to no end.
I know it may not happen. But I don't give a fuck.
But if it did... I just might fall in love.
I love him already as a friend, he tells me the same, but as a couple..
Could this be? I know someone will be confused/pissed.
But I understand. And I don't care.
This guy is amazing, and yeah I'm giddy.
I'm prolly making a mountain out of an ant pile.
Whatever, that's what happens when you crush on someone.
Everything matters, everything they say matters, everything they do matters.
Almost to a point of obsession, ANYTHING to let you know if they have feelings for you.
Jesus I sound crazy. But I see it already, my first real winter, being with him?
I could die, it would be so romantic. I know he can treat me right.
It may never happen, but hell, that's what dreams are for.
Until I wake up.
I digress, today I saw Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind.
And I cried, it dug into my heart and yanked out feelings I locked away.
Damn, if only I could erase my memory with Will. I wanted to love him, he only wanted sex.
Nevertheless, when me and Alexis looked at eachother, we started crying.
We were both laughing though, even though I was ready to start sobbing uncontrollably. I held it in though.
5 MOTHERFUCKIN STARS.
It's the only movie that made me want to sob like that.
Geez! I want to be in love. And play Starfox 64.