Random Musings Of A NOT DRUNK, but Slightly Buzzed Me...
Okay, so I just wanted to make an entry to, more than anything, kinda make myself a list of the new shit I must buy in the coming weeks. CDs mainly, cos' I am on Amazon.com right now looking at the new & future releases & spotting a lot of stuff I really want. So, list time!
1. March 15: Cassie Steele - "How Much For Happy"
I don't care what any of you bitches wanna say about me ordering the album of one of the kids from Degrassi. I love Manny, erm, I mean Cassie Steele! Seriously, though, the first single, "Blue Bird," is awesome. I love it sooo much, and the lyrics for the rest of the album are posted on her website, and they all seem very cool as well. All very well-written songs. I cannot wait to recieve it, considering I actually already pre-ordered, (from her canadian independent label, whose method of payment is Paypal,) but the ridiculous label stated allow 2-4 weeks for delivery. Bitches!
2. March 22: Lea Delaria - "Double Standards"
I have always loved Lea Delaria, she is awesome. I never knew, though, that she did music. I knew she was on Broadway in a ton of musicals, so I assumed she could sing, but I never knew she had albums. Apparently there are a few, (which I MUST check my store for,) and this is the newest. It is all covers of modern music made to sound like old standards. The samples on Amazon are fucking awesome. She does "Just A Girl" by No Doubt, "Black Hole Sun" by Soundgarden, "Longview" by Green Day, etc etc. It is awesome! Go lesbo!
3. March 22: Brie Larson - "Finally Out Of P. E."
I realise that many people have kinda come to know me as a 21 year old gay guy who is obsessed with little girls who act & sing & do pretty much all of their work for Disney. I love La Lohan, The Duffster, Anne Hathaway, My Idol Mandy Moore, & all those other girls who act & sing, (& mostly work for Disney,) but I honestly didn't mean to do that again. I swear. I saw this Brie Larson chicks video on MTV & fell in love with the song, "She Said." It is a pretty awesome pop song. I really really love it. I downloaded it & was all fine & dandy, but then one day I thought, "Hey, why don't I check out this chicks website?" When I got there, I learned. I learned my lesson. She is like 12, was in the movie "Sleepover," & some Disney series & original series. I don't understand why I am drawn to these girls, but I think I must accept it & try one day to move on from it. Now I do REALLY wanna see the movie "Sleepover," though.
4. April 5: Lisa Marie Presley - "Now What"
Okay, anyone who hung around me in the summer of 2003, (particularly during the whole time Don & I were not on speaking terms,) knows that I LOVED Lisa Marie Presley's first album. It was fucking amazing. Now, I could not be more psyched for the follow-up. The new single, "Dirty Laundry" is also brilliant, (it IS a Don Henley cover, after all.) Now I cannot wait to hear the rest of the new material. I will tell you a little more about my Lisa Marie excitement after the list, cos' there is more to be told.
5. April 5: Brandy - "Best Of..."
This is kinda ridiculous. I mean, not as ridiculous as Mandy Moore having a Greatest Hits, but still ridiculous. Brandy is releasing, after only 4 albums, a greatest hits album. I sooo have to buy it, though, cos' I don't have any of her old albums anymore & would like to get at least the singles again. For the most part with her, the singles are the only songs that really stick out in my mind from each album anyway, with a few exceptions, like the song, "All In Me" from her third album, fucking brilliant - shoulda been a single! Anyway, yeah, this is boring.
6. April 12: Mariah Carey - "The Emancipation Of Mimi"
Despite it's ridiculous title & her ridiculous past few years, I am soooo excited for the new Mariah Carey album. Mariah Carey was one of the first artists I really really loved. She has been one of my favourite artists since I was like 8 years old. She has been kinda a staple in my life from that early age, and while I tend to not really give a crap about her between albums, everytime she releases something new I am right back in that place, being 8 years old, waiting to go out and buy her album. Plus, the songs that leaked this past week are actually very promising, not to mention the first single, "It's Like That" which is HOT! Look at me, being all ghetto.
7. April 12: Garbage - "Bleed Like Me"
Woah! In typical Garbage fashion, they have a new single & a new album coming out & I never even heard about it until it was about to be released. What a fucking great band, though. I don't even care that the last album was kinda disappointing, Garbage always has SOMETHING great to offer, & I cannot wait to hear this new shit from them. Love love love the Garbage.
8. April 12: Martha Wainwright - "Martha Wainwright"
I don't really know all that much about Martha Wainwright. I haven't heard a lot of stuff from her, aside from the samples of this album on Amazon. It sounds awesome, though, and being the sister of, (and having guested on some of the songs of,) Rufus Wainwright speaks very highly of her. The stuff she did with Rufus was awesome, because everything Rufus does is amazing. I figure his sister who worked with him on so much of his stuff is definitely worth checking out.
9. Rob Thomas - "Something To Be"
Alright, I know it is cheesy. I know he is the dude from Matchbox 20, a band kinda known for making those really sappy, cheesy love songs, like the Savage Garden of adult contemporary rock, but Rob Thomas' new single is awesome. I am loving it. Besides, I love Savage Garden & Darren Hayes' solo work. Anyway, I was never too big on Matchbox 20, but I am enjoying Rob Thomas alone. He is pretty cool. Don't be JUDGIN me. Y'all don't KNOW me. Ugh! What?! j/k
Thus ends my list of shit to buy, for the moment, at least. Time to go on to other shit. The first of which will be to tell you about that Lisa Marie Presley excitement I mentioned earlier, because I know you have all been waiting with baited breath. Well, the other day I signed on to AOL & saw that one of the stories on my start page was a link to the world premiere of the new Lisa Marie Presley video, so of course, not having heard any news of a second album or anything, I clicked the link & watched the video, (which is awesome, AND includes a cameo from George Michael,) then headed over to her website. It told all about the new album & such, and mentioned the "Now What Tour," so, hot off my amazing experience seeing the Scissor Sisters & seeing Leann Rimes just the other day, I have caught the concert bug, so I checked the tour dates, & as it turns out, she is gonna be playing Jannus Landing in St. Petersburg, (like 30-45 minutes from here,) on April 26th. Needless to say, I got paid today & bought tickets first thing. I am sooo fucking psyched for this. I cannot wait! The second ticket is going to the first person who expressed interest, my Momma, because she doesn't really know Lisa Maries music, but just wants to see The Kings daughter. Plus, I know I am a giant nerd for this statement, but I love going to concerts with my Momma. She gets so excited, even when it is an artist she knows nothing about. I went to a concert with my Momma for the first time just last year. We went to see her all-time favourite artist, Barry Manilow, and she was sooo happy. The next concert we went to together was my favourite artists, Scissor Sisters, and she was kinda blase about the whole thing, but once the show started, she was all over it, and now loves them just as much as I do. Then we saw Leann Rimes, who she kinda likes, but only knew the really big songs, like "How Do I Live," "Blue," & "Can't Fight The Moonlight," but even for that, she really got into it & really enjoyed the show.
Actually, Leann Rimes was kinda a family event. Since I am now realising that I haven't actually mentioned on here about going to see Leann Rimes, I will go ahead & discuss that. Every year here in Florida, they have what they call "The Strawberry Festival," which is just a big fair in Plant City. It runs for like a week, and every day of the festival they hold a concert. It is basically a giant country music fest, which I would normally have no interest in, but as soon as I heard the name Leann Rimes, I was totally in. Come on, now, it is Leann Fucking Rimes! So, I heard about this through her official website, then checked out the Strawberry Festival website. I originally kinda figured just my Momma & I would go, but when I saw that it was a big fair type thing, I thought we should bring the lesbians along. Then my brother came to visit one weekend, with his girlfriend, Brandy. I love Brandy, & she is a big country music person, so it seemed like it could be cool to make it a family outing. So, I invited them along. I completely forgot about it for a while, then the time came to go, and I was totally unprepared. I hadn't even purchased tickets. Luckily, they weren't sold out & we were able to get them at the gate. The concert was awesome, despite being kinda short, (like an hour & 15 minutes or so,) and having not the best seats, (but it was really just me being spoiled from going to so many TINY venue shows, like HOB & such, where you are making eye contact with the artists & shit.) At the very end of the show, they started letting people go up to the stage to take pictures & such, so I was all over that, & again, just cos' I seem to have great concert luck, Leann saw me, looked right at me, made eye contact & smiled. I think she liked my pink shoes or my Go-Gos t-shirt or my fuzzy hat. Either way, she looked right at me & smiled while singing one of the la-di-da parts of Me & Bobby McGee. It was sooo exciting. That makes another check on my list of celebrities who have seen me, noticed me, made eye contact with me, smiled at me or waved at me. Hahahaha. I am beginning to think I may actually be a little drunk. Nah, I am just in a stupid mood. Anyway, Leann Rimes was awesome. We wandered around the fair for a few hours afterwards, and I dunno why I never made the connection before, but I learned something... a fair is just another word for a carnival. Carnies were everywhere. People with booths selling really well made fake Louis Vuitton bags & really horribly made fake Chanel sunglasses, and band t-shirts & fucking carnival games. There were actually some really attractive carnies, though, and it is odd, but I suddenly understand how some of those white trash women are lured into the trap of carnie love, and ending up with fatherless children.
Anyway, I don't really think there is actually much else to cover. I am just dreading work tomorrow. Tomorrow is the beginning of a 6 day stretch before I get another day off. I got through a 7 day stretch fine before, though, so 6 should be alright. I am just not really too happy about having to close the next 3 nights, though. Closing all weekend, then get to follow that up with opening Monday morning, 10 hours after I close Sunday night. That is always a pleasure. An absolute joy! Then I open those 2 days & mid-shift it Wednesday. All I know is that I will cherish Thursday when it comes, & not do shit that whole damn day. I cannot wait. I need to shop. I actually have a lot more money left over than I expected this week, so I may actually be able to afford some very minor shopping. Thing is, I prolly won't end up doing that shopping. Oh well, it's all good. It's prolly better that I don't. If I still have cash at the end of these next 2 weeks, I am buying more concert tickets. Most likely for Joss Stone in June, and if I don't have money left after these next two weeks, well I will still buy those Joss Stone tickets with the paycheck I will be getting then. The thing here is, I didn't see any concerts in January or February, but I did in March, will be in April & am almost 100% that I will be seeing Joss Stone in June. So, that is 2 consecutive months, skipping one, then a third month. Wouldn't it be so much cooler to say that I went to a concert every month for 4 consecutive months. Not really, but I want to anyway. Kelly Clarkson will be playing the Ruth Eckerd Hall in Clearwater on May 7th, and I would LOVE to see her. I would DIE. So, I may work on buying tickets to that, as well. I dunno yet, though. Leann Rimes tickets were $15, LMP tickets were $19.50, I think the Joss Stone tickets are $22... Kelly Clarkson tickets are $45 or something. Not actually all that much more, but it is much easier to have $40 at any given moment than to have $80. I dunno. We'll see. Heh... I am a fucking idiot.
Oh!!!! The thing I actually originally meant to say after the list of shit to buy was about my cellphone. I dunno if I even mentioned it a few weeks ago or not, but I got the most gorgeous new phone. It was shiny & red & matched my friend Brees. We had the exact same phone, but mine was red & hers was blue. We were like Paris & Nicole. It was beautiful. I love my phone sooo much, it is amazing. The thing is, though, that earlier tonight, my phone abandoned me. It took the long journey into darkness. It is so depressing. I am so sad. There are certain things I carry with me everywhere when I am at home, if I am planning on staying in that place for an extended period of time. If I am moving from one seat to another, from the couch to the computer desk, to the dining room table or wherever, I always have my cell phone, my cigarettes & my soda in my hands. Well, I curse myself for not having three hands today, because I was carrying my cell phone & my soda in one hand & my cigarettes in the other, and... and... I just can't face it all again.... I dropped my cell phone into my soda. It came to its death by way of Dr. Pepper. Doctors are suppose to help people, but that fucking Dr. Pepper killed my cell phone dead. I hate it for that. I called the Sprint technical support people, who basically told me that I would have been screwed, but since I was a smarty pants & got the insurance, they can send me a new phone. Unfortunately, though, I won't have said new phone until Monday or Tuesday. I have to go all fucking weekend without a cell phone. I am dying, dying dead. It sucks fucking donkey ass. I don't want to be without my phone all weekend. I am closing every night this weekend, which means I sleep until 1 or 2, get up, get ready & go to work, then come home sit up alone for a little bit, go to sleep & repeat process. This means that when I close a few days in a row, I don't really get to see my Momma or anyone, which sucks. Normally I would call my Momma on my breaks at work & talk to her, but now I won't even get to do that. It really fucking sucks. I am gonna be sooo sad without my cell phone. Hopefully, though, it won't be long til I get the new one. It is all just so sad. I think I am gonna go cry now.
Jason
1. March 15: Cassie Steele - "How Much For Happy"
I don't care what any of you bitches wanna say about me ordering the album of one of the kids from Degrassi. I love Manny, erm, I mean Cassie Steele! Seriously, though, the first single, "Blue Bird," is awesome. I love it sooo much, and the lyrics for the rest of the album are posted on her website, and they all seem very cool as well. All very well-written songs. I cannot wait to recieve it, considering I actually already pre-ordered, (from her canadian independent label, whose method of payment is Paypal,) but the ridiculous label stated allow 2-4 weeks for delivery. Bitches!
2. March 22: Lea Delaria - "Double Standards"
I have always loved Lea Delaria, she is awesome. I never knew, though, that she did music. I knew she was on Broadway in a ton of musicals, so I assumed she could sing, but I never knew she had albums. Apparently there are a few, (which I MUST check my store for,) and this is the newest. It is all covers of modern music made to sound like old standards. The samples on Amazon are fucking awesome. She does "Just A Girl" by No Doubt, "Black Hole Sun" by Soundgarden, "Longview" by Green Day, etc etc. It is awesome! Go lesbo!
3. March 22: Brie Larson - "Finally Out Of P. E."
I realise that many people have kinda come to know me as a 21 year old gay guy who is obsessed with little girls who act & sing & do pretty much all of their work for Disney. I love La Lohan, The Duffster, Anne Hathaway, My Idol Mandy Moore, & all those other girls who act & sing, (& mostly work for Disney,) but I honestly didn't mean to do that again. I swear. I saw this Brie Larson chicks video on MTV & fell in love with the song, "She Said." It is a pretty awesome pop song. I really really love it. I downloaded it & was all fine & dandy, but then one day I thought, "Hey, why don't I check out this chicks website?" When I got there, I learned. I learned my lesson. She is like 12, was in the movie "Sleepover," & some Disney series & original series. I don't understand why I am drawn to these girls, but I think I must accept it & try one day to move on from it. Now I do REALLY wanna see the movie "Sleepover," though.
4. April 5: Lisa Marie Presley - "Now What"
Okay, anyone who hung around me in the summer of 2003, (particularly during the whole time Don & I were not on speaking terms,) knows that I LOVED Lisa Marie Presley's first album. It was fucking amazing. Now, I could not be more psyched for the follow-up. The new single, "Dirty Laundry" is also brilliant, (it IS a Don Henley cover, after all.) Now I cannot wait to hear the rest of the new material. I will tell you a little more about my Lisa Marie excitement after the list, cos' there is more to be told.
5. April 5: Brandy - "Best Of..."
This is kinda ridiculous. I mean, not as ridiculous as Mandy Moore having a Greatest Hits, but still ridiculous. Brandy is releasing, after only 4 albums, a greatest hits album. I sooo have to buy it, though, cos' I don't have any of her old albums anymore & would like to get at least the singles again. For the most part with her, the singles are the only songs that really stick out in my mind from each album anyway, with a few exceptions, like the song, "All In Me" from her third album, fucking brilliant - shoulda been a single! Anyway, yeah, this is boring.
6. April 12: Mariah Carey - "The Emancipation Of Mimi"
Despite it's ridiculous title & her ridiculous past few years, I am soooo excited for the new Mariah Carey album. Mariah Carey was one of the first artists I really really loved. She has been one of my favourite artists since I was like 8 years old. She has been kinda a staple in my life from that early age, and while I tend to not really give a crap about her between albums, everytime she releases something new I am right back in that place, being 8 years old, waiting to go out and buy her album. Plus, the songs that leaked this past week are actually very promising, not to mention the first single, "It's Like That" which is HOT! Look at me, being all ghetto.
7. April 12: Garbage - "Bleed Like Me"
Woah! In typical Garbage fashion, they have a new single & a new album coming out & I never even heard about it until it was about to be released. What a fucking great band, though. I don't even care that the last album was kinda disappointing, Garbage always has SOMETHING great to offer, & I cannot wait to hear this new shit from them. Love love love the Garbage.
8. April 12: Martha Wainwright - "Martha Wainwright"
I don't really know all that much about Martha Wainwright. I haven't heard a lot of stuff from her, aside from the samples of this album on Amazon. It sounds awesome, though, and being the sister of, (and having guested on some of the songs of,) Rufus Wainwright speaks very highly of her. The stuff she did with Rufus was awesome, because everything Rufus does is amazing. I figure his sister who worked with him on so much of his stuff is definitely worth checking out.
9. Rob Thomas - "Something To Be"
Alright, I know it is cheesy. I know he is the dude from Matchbox 20, a band kinda known for making those really sappy, cheesy love songs, like the Savage Garden of adult contemporary rock, but Rob Thomas' new single is awesome. I am loving it. Besides, I love Savage Garden & Darren Hayes' solo work. Anyway, I was never too big on Matchbox 20, but I am enjoying Rob Thomas alone. He is pretty cool. Don't be JUDGIN me. Y'all don't KNOW me. Ugh! What?! j/k
Thus ends my list of shit to buy, for the moment, at least. Time to go on to other shit. The first of which will be to tell you about that Lisa Marie Presley excitement I mentioned earlier, because I know you have all been waiting with baited breath. Well, the other day I signed on to AOL & saw that one of the stories on my start page was a link to the world premiere of the new Lisa Marie Presley video, so of course, not having heard any news of a second album or anything, I clicked the link & watched the video, (which is awesome, AND includes a cameo from George Michael,) then headed over to her website. It told all about the new album & such, and mentioned the "Now What Tour," so, hot off my amazing experience seeing the Scissor Sisters & seeing Leann Rimes just the other day, I have caught the concert bug, so I checked the tour dates, & as it turns out, she is gonna be playing Jannus Landing in St. Petersburg, (like 30-45 minutes from here,) on April 26th. Needless to say, I got paid today & bought tickets first thing. I am sooo fucking psyched for this. I cannot wait! The second ticket is going to the first person who expressed interest, my Momma, because she doesn't really know Lisa Maries music, but just wants to see The Kings daughter. Plus, I know I am a giant nerd for this statement, but I love going to concerts with my Momma. She gets so excited, even when it is an artist she knows nothing about. I went to a concert with my Momma for the first time just last year. We went to see her all-time favourite artist, Barry Manilow, and she was sooo happy. The next concert we went to together was my favourite artists, Scissor Sisters, and she was kinda blase about the whole thing, but once the show started, she was all over it, and now loves them just as much as I do. Then we saw Leann Rimes, who she kinda likes, but only knew the really big songs, like "How Do I Live," "Blue," & "Can't Fight The Moonlight," but even for that, she really got into it & really enjoyed the show.
Actually, Leann Rimes was kinda a family event. Since I am now realising that I haven't actually mentioned on here about going to see Leann Rimes, I will go ahead & discuss that. Every year here in Florida, they have what they call "The Strawberry Festival," which is just a big fair in Plant City. It runs for like a week, and every day of the festival they hold a concert. It is basically a giant country music fest, which I would normally have no interest in, but as soon as I heard the name Leann Rimes, I was totally in. Come on, now, it is Leann Fucking Rimes! So, I heard about this through her official website, then checked out the Strawberry Festival website. I originally kinda figured just my Momma & I would go, but when I saw that it was a big fair type thing, I thought we should bring the lesbians along. Then my brother came to visit one weekend, with his girlfriend, Brandy. I love Brandy, & she is a big country music person, so it seemed like it could be cool to make it a family outing. So, I invited them along. I completely forgot about it for a while, then the time came to go, and I was totally unprepared. I hadn't even purchased tickets. Luckily, they weren't sold out & we were able to get them at the gate. The concert was awesome, despite being kinda short, (like an hour & 15 minutes or so,) and having not the best seats, (but it was really just me being spoiled from going to so many TINY venue shows, like HOB & such, where you are making eye contact with the artists & shit.) At the very end of the show, they started letting people go up to the stage to take pictures & such, so I was all over that, & again, just cos' I seem to have great concert luck, Leann saw me, looked right at me, made eye contact & smiled. I think she liked my pink shoes or my Go-Gos t-shirt or my fuzzy hat. Either way, she looked right at me & smiled while singing one of the la-di-da parts of Me & Bobby McGee. It was sooo exciting. That makes another check on my list of celebrities who have seen me, noticed me, made eye contact with me, smiled at me or waved at me. Hahahaha. I am beginning to think I may actually be a little drunk. Nah, I am just in a stupid mood. Anyway, Leann Rimes was awesome. We wandered around the fair for a few hours afterwards, and I dunno why I never made the connection before, but I learned something... a fair is just another word for a carnival. Carnies were everywhere. People with booths selling really well made fake Louis Vuitton bags & really horribly made fake Chanel sunglasses, and band t-shirts & fucking carnival games. There were actually some really attractive carnies, though, and it is odd, but I suddenly understand how some of those white trash women are lured into the trap of carnie love, and ending up with fatherless children.
Anyway, I don't really think there is actually much else to cover. I am just dreading work tomorrow. Tomorrow is the beginning of a 6 day stretch before I get another day off. I got through a 7 day stretch fine before, though, so 6 should be alright. I am just not really too happy about having to close the next 3 nights, though. Closing all weekend, then get to follow that up with opening Monday morning, 10 hours after I close Sunday night. That is always a pleasure. An absolute joy! Then I open those 2 days & mid-shift it Wednesday. All I know is that I will cherish Thursday when it comes, & not do shit that whole damn day. I cannot wait. I need to shop. I actually have a lot more money left over than I expected this week, so I may actually be able to afford some very minor shopping. Thing is, I prolly won't end up doing that shopping. Oh well, it's all good. It's prolly better that I don't. If I still have cash at the end of these next 2 weeks, I am buying more concert tickets. Most likely for Joss Stone in June, and if I don't have money left after these next two weeks, well I will still buy those Joss Stone tickets with the paycheck I will be getting then. The thing here is, I didn't see any concerts in January or February, but I did in March, will be in April & am almost 100% that I will be seeing Joss Stone in June. So, that is 2 consecutive months, skipping one, then a third month. Wouldn't it be so much cooler to say that I went to a concert every month for 4 consecutive months. Not really, but I want to anyway. Kelly Clarkson will be playing the Ruth Eckerd Hall in Clearwater on May 7th, and I would LOVE to see her. I would DIE. So, I may work on buying tickets to that, as well. I dunno yet, though. Leann Rimes tickets were $15, LMP tickets were $19.50, I think the Joss Stone tickets are $22... Kelly Clarkson tickets are $45 or something. Not actually all that much more, but it is much easier to have $40 at any given moment than to have $80. I dunno. We'll see. Heh... I am a fucking idiot.
Oh!!!! The thing I actually originally meant to say after the list of shit to buy was about my cellphone. I dunno if I even mentioned it a few weeks ago or not, but I got the most gorgeous new phone. It was shiny & red & matched my friend Brees. We had the exact same phone, but mine was red & hers was blue. We were like Paris & Nicole. It was beautiful. I love my phone sooo much, it is amazing. The thing is, though, that earlier tonight, my phone abandoned me. It took the long journey into darkness. It is so depressing. I am so sad. There are certain things I carry with me everywhere when I am at home, if I am planning on staying in that place for an extended period of time. If I am moving from one seat to another, from the couch to the computer desk, to the dining room table or wherever, I always have my cell phone, my cigarettes & my soda in my hands. Well, I curse myself for not having three hands today, because I was carrying my cell phone & my soda in one hand & my cigarettes in the other, and... and... I just can't face it all again.... I dropped my cell phone into my soda. It came to its death by way of Dr. Pepper. Doctors are suppose to help people, but that fucking Dr. Pepper killed my cell phone dead. I hate it for that. I called the Sprint technical support people, who basically told me that I would have been screwed, but since I was a smarty pants & got the insurance, they can send me a new phone. Unfortunately, though, I won't have said new phone until Monday or Tuesday. I have to go all fucking weekend without a cell phone. I am dying, dying dead. It sucks fucking donkey ass. I don't want to be without my phone all weekend. I am closing every night this weekend, which means I sleep until 1 or 2, get up, get ready & go to work, then come home sit up alone for a little bit, go to sleep & repeat process. This means that when I close a few days in a row, I don't really get to see my Momma or anyone, which sucks. Normally I would call my Momma on my breaks at work & talk to her, but now I won't even get to do that. It really fucking sucks. I am gonna be sooo sad without my cell phone. Hopefully, though, it won't be long til I get the new one. It is all just so sad. I think I am gonna go cry now.
Jason