when things are not so great...
when things are not so great i find myself coming back to livejournal...
life is grand and i just need to learn how to live in it without getting swept under the rug when its time to clean.
I love everything that i have going for me... the work... the school work... the guys... me... my social life... and everything in general.
so why am i so torn up inside? my emotions are up and down and i can not seem to control them or show them. its like i have these emotions that are killing me and making me scream my head off but nothing is coming out and no one can tell anything is wrong... that is until i tell them, then they just look at me like im stupid and need to just chill. I agree but this is not the time for me to chill but instead take my life back and get it together. i find myself stopping and catching my breathe more than i catch myself from actually falling.
I will admit it hurts... it hurts a lot im sick of hurting but i have to go through the pain to be happy again... I think at least.
life is grand and i just need to learn how to live in it without getting swept under the rug when its time to clean.
I love everything that i have going for me... the work... the school work... the guys... me... my social life... and everything in general.
so why am i so torn up inside? my emotions are up and down and i can not seem to control them or show them. its like i have these emotions that are killing me and making me scream my head off but nothing is coming out and no one can tell anything is wrong... that is until i tell them, then they just look at me like im stupid and need to just chill. I agree but this is not the time for me to chill but instead take my life back and get it together. i find myself stopping and catching my breathe more than i catch myself from actually falling.
I will admit it hurts... it hurts a lot im sick of hurting but i have to go through the pain to be happy again... I think at least.