change your taste in men.
I woke up to a text message from Cat saying she says she doesn't even feel like we're friends anymore.
This can't be blamed on me.
I really miss her, though.
But it got me thinking.
My best friends are those at the library. This is mostly because we see each other at work all the time.
So if I quit the library again, would I lose all my buddies?
This lead me to think about how even though I don't see my Best.Friend.Since.Diapers. all that much anymore, every time I do I realize why I'm completely in love with her & we suddenly reconnect despite everything we missed.
How awful, though, that we live right next door to each other like we always have, and I only see her every couple weeks, at most?
& about how me and my boo Brian had a super long hiatus, but now I don't think I'd be sane without our superrrr long late-night, white hot chocolate induced conversations [ha, even if I don't talk a lot].
This crazy, pre-masturbation morning (when I'm at my highest point of concentration), I also realized that friends really are more real than lovers. & that blood may NOT always be thicker than water. [Not with my family, though, sorry kids, I love the Falkowski/Schiele/Zuefle/Podkladek clan]. I really do love Garrett so much, & pretty much feel nauseous if I think about trying to go back to where I was before I met him. & I really do think of a pretty long future with him [well, until Steve Buscemi comes around & decides to make me his wife], as lame as that sounds. This really is true. At the same time, I know people like Kaylyn, Josh & Brian are going to be around even longer. Not only because they are here during every mood swing, Mommy cancer scare, break-up, bout of anorexia, substance addiction, & suicide attempt [those are long gone now], but because they love me for who I am, whoever "I" is at that time.
College friends were supposed to be the best I made ever, but it's the childhood and high school buddies that stick. I do love people like Cat, Liz, & Doug, but we grew up in different settings, & it's not easy adjusting. I do love them to death, though, it's just tough.
I'm just going to paste what I put into my AIM profile, because I'm a big lame-o like that. Oh, and this entry is x-posted, once again. I'm lazy.
I hate how people randomly disappear. The only people who matter to me are those who give our friendship a true effort, & that I can completely trust.
Josh, Brian, Sam, Nolan, Kaylyn, Caity, Tam.
These people are the absolutely most important things to me outside of my family, & I love them with all my heart. They remind me friends are always more important than boyfriends. & sometimes even family.
Thank you guys for being here for me through my craziness. I LOVE YOU.
This can't be blamed on me.
I really miss her, though.
But it got me thinking.
My best friends are those at the library. This is mostly because we see each other at work all the time.
So if I quit the library again, would I lose all my buddies?
This lead me to think about how even though I don't see my Best.Friend.Since.Diapers. all that much anymore, every time I do I realize why I'm completely in love with her & we suddenly reconnect despite everything we missed.
How awful, though, that we live right next door to each other like we always have, and I only see her every couple weeks, at most?
& about how me and my boo Brian had a super long hiatus, but now I don't think I'd be sane without our superrrr long late-night, white hot chocolate induced conversations [ha, even if I don't talk a lot].
This crazy, pre-masturbation morning (when I'm at my highest point of concentration), I also realized that friends really are more real than lovers. & that blood may NOT always be thicker than water. [Not with my family, though, sorry kids, I love the Falkowski/Schiele/Zuefle/Podkladek clan]. I really do love Garrett so much, & pretty much feel nauseous if I think about trying to go back to where I was before I met him. & I really do think of a pretty long future with him [well, until Steve Buscemi comes around & decides to make me his wife], as lame as that sounds. This really is true. At the same time, I know people like Kaylyn, Josh & Brian are going to be around even longer. Not only because they are here during every mood swing, Mommy cancer scare, break-up, bout of anorexia, substance addiction, & suicide attempt [those are long gone now], but because they love me for who I am, whoever "I" is at that time.
College friends were supposed to be the best I made ever, but it's the childhood and high school buddies that stick. I do love people like Cat, Liz, & Doug, but we grew up in different settings, & it's not easy adjusting. I do love them to death, though, it's just tough.
I'm just going to paste what I put into my AIM profile, because I'm a big lame-o like that. Oh, and this entry is x-posted, once again. I'm lazy.
I hate how people randomly disappear. The only people who matter to me are those who give our friendship a true effort, & that I can completely trust.
Josh, Brian, Sam, Nolan, Kaylyn, Caity, Tam.
These people are the absolutely most important things to me outside of my family, & I love them with all my heart. They remind me friends are always more important than boyfriends. & sometimes even family.
Thank you guys for being here for me through my craziness. I LOVE YOU.