After a sleepless night, what will tomorrow bring?

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In real life, I talk to people. It is a part of the culture I grew up in. We are friendly, both naturally and deliberately. I have met people from other cultures who encounter this friendliness and feel it to be not genuine or forced. Adopting friendliness in situations where it may feel unnatural is, I suppose, forced. But it is also beneficial. Being less reactionary, and more focussed on a goal of mutual understanding, is the tool of communication between many cultures. I do not find anything edifying about cultures which are, more abrupt, less patient. This means that people spit out insults, or even get physical. This causes an extra layer of negative communication. One gets insulted, and if he or she is trying to be cooperative or understanding, then there is now an additional item to negotiate. So, instead of coming to terms with a situation, like a person who interrupts, asking for directions, and giving that person directions, pardoning his interruption, you then respond with a reactionary judgement about his looks, his level of intelligence, you complicate things for yourself. The fastest thing would be to give directions, or impart any level of information. If you have to let the person know you were interrupted, say because you do not like being dictated to, the first step is probably to think about how you would like to be spoken to in that situation. It could be completely wrong, you might like someone letting you know you were being rude, you may even want to be patronised about it, or called a name, or have someone focus on your insecurities about your belly, or your eyebrows. But maybe not. Maybe you can relate to being desperate about needing to find something in a hurry and momentarily lost your manners. Before being given the ability to apologise, maybe you would like someone to compare your intelligence to that of a Barbary Macaque. But, if you don't try starting with what you would probably like to hear, directions, or, the apology that you don't know where the location being asked about is. Later, after reaching your destination, for your loved one's surgery, birthday party, train depot for that hourly train, you may consider that you were not a perfect gentlemen or lady, and in future you may wish to offer a thank you and apology. Instead, what I find is a "butterfly effect." A person is interrupted, he tells the interrupter to get stuffed, and the interrupter moves on, both of you with negative sentiments, passing it along to the next person along. It's like a zombie apocalypse.

I am hypocrite, I lash out, because I am one of the bitten people becoming a zombie usually. But I'm working on it. I'm working on a cure. Going to the old country and coming across friendly people, finding friendly people at home makes me want to take a step back. Whether it feels genuine or not, I'd not like to be in the middle of the apocalypse. I'll try and force myself not to bite, as I do not like being bitten.