resolutions and reevaluations
I figured it was that time of year...the time where we bear all and promise to better. I have a million resolutions I could spout out I guess..eat better, exercise more, study hard, party harder. Maybe this will be the year where I finally stop biting my finger nails, maybe not. In all reality, it'll be good if I accomplish one of these things. Or if I study hard for a month, until I trail off into the last couple weeks of term where everyone pretends to study a lot, but no one really does much of anything.
That being said, in attempt to follow through on my resolutions this year, I have attempted to make my goals less superficial. I am going to concentrate on, if not being happier, being more content with life, and myself. I had a couple weeks this year where I felt like I could've have written the Kings of Convenience song, "I'd rather dance" where they sing "Even if I could hear what you said/I doubt my reply would be interesting for you to hear/Because I haven't read a single book all year/And the only film I saw, I didn't like it at all." I should read more books, see more movies, listen to more good music. I should interest myself, and dance when I dont want to interest you.
I had a conversation the other day with an acquaintance who asked me what kind of music I listened to. The conversation wasn't really about music though, it was a test, an evaluation. The artists I rattled off would affect his opinion of me. I do that too. Judge people, look at people through a lense that it is not nearly as important what you are like as what you like. I should cut that out. Some of my best friends like James Blunt. My biggest music guru is a huge ass.
So I guess my resolution is to be more interesting, to get to know people better, to be able to connect with people on a superficial level, to understand and appreciate their taste, to not take their taste too seriously. Mostly, though, my resolution is to quit trying to answer those questions about music or movies in the way I think they want to be answered. And fuck those people who like me a little less because of my infatuation with Mandy Moore or country music. In 2007 I will be content in my indulgences. I will pursue intellectual pursuits,
until I get bored.
That being said, in attempt to follow through on my resolutions this year, I have attempted to make my goals less superficial. I am going to concentrate on, if not being happier, being more content with life, and myself. I had a couple weeks this year where I felt like I could've have written the Kings of Convenience song, "I'd rather dance" where they sing "Even if I could hear what you said/I doubt my reply would be interesting for you to hear/Because I haven't read a single book all year/And the only film I saw, I didn't like it at all." I should read more books, see more movies, listen to more good music. I should interest myself, and dance when I dont want to interest you.
I had a conversation the other day with an acquaintance who asked me what kind of music I listened to. The conversation wasn't really about music though, it was a test, an evaluation. The artists I rattled off would affect his opinion of me. I do that too. Judge people, look at people through a lense that it is not nearly as important what you are like as what you like. I should cut that out. Some of my best friends like James Blunt. My biggest music guru is a huge ass.
So I guess my resolution is to be more interesting, to get to know people better, to be able to connect with people on a superficial level, to understand and appreciate their taste, to not take their taste too seriously. Mostly, though, my resolution is to quit trying to answer those questions about music or movies in the way I think they want to be answered. And fuck those people who like me a little less because of my infatuation with Mandy Moore or country music. In 2007 I will be content in my indulgences. I will pursue intellectual pursuits,
until I get bored.