and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand
i've been eating constantly since i got back from the swim meet today. and i'm not hungry anymore and i don't want to eat but i cant stop. i see food and i can't help but eat it. when im bored i automatically go downstairs and open the fridge or the pantry without even thinking about it, and sometimes i'll be standing in front of the refridgerator and suddenly wonder how i got there. i keep telling myself to stop eating, but i'm not listening.
i have to get tomorrow at 6 to go to a swim meet. and sunday too. and then monday through friday next week i have to get up at 6 to go to morning practice. i need time to sleep but there isn't any. i can't ever go back to sleep after swim practice and me and alison always end up doing something the whole day and i don't end up going to bed until ten or eleven. i need for everyone to go out of town and my computer and telephone and television and books to be taken away. i need to be bored, but i have too many things to do, so it has to be forced. i don't know.
i have to get tomorrow at 6 to go to a swim meet. and sunday too. and then monday through friday next week i have to get up at 6 to go to morning practice. i need time to sleep but there isn't any. i can't ever go back to sleep after swim practice and me and alison always end up doing something the whole day and i don't end up going to bed until ten or eleven. i need for everyone to go out of town and my computer and telephone and television and books to be taken away. i need to be bored, but i have too many things to do, so it has to be forced. i don't know.