I really hate being depressing...
Today I took my UPS mathematics placement exam. I was not supposed to use a calculator on it. I flagrantly broke that rule. Half-way through the trig section I just gave up and started skipping questions: ugh. It was weird, a lot of math actually came back to me, pretty basic algebra stuff, but I...remembered it. I had flashbacks to Mr. Wilson's class, covering logs. And just using my calculator, because it was easier.
Taking the math test depressed me, because it made me think of going off to college, which made me think about everyone going to college. I went through my book shelf, I have eleven volumes of Inuyasha that I do not know what to do with...I don't want to get rid of my books. Ever. I like my books. Why would someone try to take them from me. THEY'RE MINE. And they're pretty and hard-back. Except for the ones that aren't.
I've got to get a dentist appointment and hair appointment in before I go. I really don't want to do all this mundane crap, I really want to savor this summer and not have to think about my non-existant future. I have no idea what my major is going to be. Also I've got inward struggle about what language I should take, because I keep telling myself I WANT to continue with Japanese, but I can't help but feel like that's someone else talking for me. Since half the time I didn't even enjoy it/know what was going on. Plus I think I'm getting dumber, which may just be because I had a conversation with Lu, which usually makes me feel sufficiently inadequate about everything since she holds everything to a RIDICULOUSLY high standard.
My mom wants me to take French. I don't want to end up a directionless English major........ergh.
Taking the math test depressed me, because it made me think of going off to college, which made me think about everyone going to college. I went through my book shelf, I have eleven volumes of Inuyasha that I do not know what to do with...I don't want to get rid of my books. Ever. I like my books. Why would someone try to take them from me. THEY'RE MINE. And they're pretty and hard-back. Except for the ones that aren't.
I've got to get a dentist appointment and hair appointment in before I go. I really don't want to do all this mundane crap, I really want to savor this summer and not have to think about my non-existant future. I have no idea what my major is going to be. Also I've got inward struggle about what language I should take, because I keep telling myself I WANT to continue with Japanese, but I can't help but feel like that's someone else talking for me. Since half the time I didn't even enjoy it/know what was going on. Plus I think I'm getting dumber, which may just be because I had a conversation with Lu, which usually makes me feel sufficiently inadequate about everything since she holds everything to a RIDICULOUSLY high standard.
My mom wants me to take French. I don't want to end up a directionless English major........ergh.