meh.
I think my depression is getting bad again. In an 'I have no energy and can't bring myself to get out of bed so spend my days lying in bed either sleeping or just staring at the ceiling' kind of way. Also I haven't really eaten properly since monday. I mean, I think I had a couple of fish fingers on tuesday, possibly some rice on wednesday and a bowl of soup yesterday. But it doesn't really matter anyway. I don't really feel hungry. It's not because I don't have any food in the house, because I do. I just don't feel like eating it.
I can't bring myself to do anything, or really leave the house. I spend half an hour sitting on the path outside yesterday, but then I went back inside and went back to bed. It just didn't help as much as it should have done.
And I can't stop crying. That's never actually happened before and it's a bit confusing.
It's like there isn't any point to anything any more, so my brain just says 'meh, don't bother, just stay in bed and try not to think about anything'.
I need to find somewhere where I can go and hide for a while and try and not be like this.
I think I might be going mad.
I can't bring myself to do anything, or really leave the house. I spend half an hour sitting on the path outside yesterday, but then I went back inside and went back to bed. It just didn't help as much as it should have done.
And I can't stop crying. That's never actually happened before and it's a bit confusing.
It's like there isn't any point to anything any more, so my brain just says 'meh, don't bother, just stay in bed and try not to think about anything'.
I need to find somewhere where I can go and hide for a while and try and not be like this.
I think I might be going mad.