enlightment and honesty! (part 2)
years after being known as a girl who never think of love... well rather out loud, I changed with the slights of thoughts living in this big humongous world alone and that is a choice I choose not to make. Finding someone to depend on for the rest of my life is definitely not a good short solution. it won't come no matter how fast i go about it...
the fact that i never see anyone and befriended with anyone is not the mainreason of these fail searches... it is because of him. I see only him. That tall bit fat kind of a guy, whom I lose contact to, whom I only see in Instagram, whom I only chat in FB whom I only wassap with... Though none of this ever make sense to him, yet I feel connected and in love with his being. I might be the most stupid girl ever born, for going on this one-sided-love that will never occur again anymore. I loved you, I wished to be with you, but it was all now a past that I should let go. I've thanked you thousand times for letting me see what a love could do and what one-sided-love could not do. For you who never look at me the same as I always look at you. I still do missed you, but I think I'm over you. Please do live happily, find the one, the girl who can listen to you and cheer you anytime you're in pain, who could take half of your burden and double your happiness, the one who would never betray you no matter in what condition you are, the one who can always say goodnights and pray for health day and night, who will say only the right and never say yes for the wrongdoings. I do pray with all my heart that you will find her and be as happy as you should be.
still If any of these do not make any sense to you, do find me, look for me and ask me that one question. And you know what, the only answer I'd give is "yes, I do"...