5 weeks gone by. 7 weeks left, and I'm dying to not ever leave the school.....
After 5 weeks in school, i must say... i feel like staying and teach these kids till i die. The only thing missing was me being married and that alone make me realized that i love this killing undeniable scruting job. i mean this job will kill any human who wants to be in it for more than their life. and thats me. i love surrounded by kids half my age, and dwelling in the social problems among its residence. love the fact that we can talk almost about everything yet nothing, love the way stress come to me in a form of longing my mom, dad and family members. love how i miss my mates so much that i almost cried each time i met any of them. the only thing scares me is my limit of loving this self of mine. will i ever hate being me, and stop by being her, the old unmature me. i admit, i'm much more a lady compared to the old me 5 weeks ago. i listen more carefully, i think rather deeper and longer, i carefully pick my words and i dress even as girly as i could or better as teacherly as i could.
hiding the fact that i am actually very much tired of life made me realized things better now. being in school calm me, but i still long for love from the other gender. saying that i don't need any of it, is definitely a lie. i'm 25 now. a fair maiden if we were going to the old age....