me being so indecisived is so wrong!
I had better choice, better life, better man if I just stay away from him. He is just not the right one if I ever wanted a better life.
Years ago....
Imaichi Ryuji, one of the JSB vocalist along side my cousin Tosaka Hiroomi pissed me off each time he opens his mouth talking bout stuff that should not be mattered to him. Yeah I know he's just being nice, but nice do have boundaries. I mean me being close to nothing should not be a problem to him, since I only wrote songs for his senpai's, but all he's been babbling about how irritating seeing me in the studio. Yup, that was my very first time seeing him, knowing him even talking to him. Omi's just silently watch us arguing.
"Youki-chan, you're here, good." said Takahiro-san. Atsushi-san came afterward and the noisy Ryuji shut his mouth like nothing ever happened. We sat down and Sokichi-san and Nesmith-san came along just then. Writing songs for L.D.H Inc. is what I ever love to do. Being able to hear their voice perfecting the rhymes and melodies with all the words I assembled is just life to me. Just minutes later, Hiro-san shows up, and I let them hear the demo songs I've kept for almost six months with me. Isolating myself from everyone was one good decision made by the company for me who was struggling to create better music. All the vocalists, producers and CEO were here, and I opened all of my CD-demos. Describing which songs belong to which team. And to their surprise I opened the very much secretive folder of mine, The Tribe-2014 Another Perfect Year. Each song played. I waited for the worst since most of them are so very silent...
"Youki-chan" Hiro-san called my name.
"Yes,?"
"I think everyone agree. We'll record the songs immediately and put them in the coming album."
"Really? Then I guess I should arrange who sang which part, right?"
"yup, but you do know that I won't be participating right?" asked Atsushi-san.
Yes, I know. My most lovable voice won't be in any of the new songs I wrote, for now. I smiled though my heart sank to the ground. Losing Atsushi's voice is one hell of problem to me. That was the only thing that could make me malfunction. The only reason as to why it was so hard for me to make music... I guess being creative and crazy won't help me very good this time.
"I did the songs in that consideration as well. Though it took me awhile to get to use it. To imagine songs without takatshushi combo-voices is hard. Especially since they're both are my muses. But then, it'll be okay, now..."
I divided the parts and everyone seems to be satisfied, apart from Ryuji's glare, everything else was fine. I guess they do realised that their young Youki-chan has matured up a bit. If it was me 10 years ago, I might throws tantrums and leave, but there's nothing I can do now.
The recording session for 24WORLD single started. I do wish that they'd record REVOLUTION first, but Hiro-san said it is better if it's the other way since the PV would be grander, thus more time is needed. As the session continues, I was invited by Hiro-san to watch the PV recording for 24WORLD. In the middle of the people, there he stands silently.
"Guys, meet Youki-chan, Igarashi Hiroyouki our new album composer and my niece in that sense as well." Said Hiro-san. Yes, I forgot to tell. His eldest brother is my father who was born in year 1963, making my dad 6 years older. Some do ask me, how does it like to have Hiro-san as uncle and Aya-nee as aunt, which the answers were pretty much the same. They're just like any other regular family members..
"Hi, Igarashi Hiroyouki-desu. I know, it sound the same, but the characters are different so yea, me and Hiro-san own the same name." I smile afterwards. They just laughed. He stood still watching, till something spark in his brain and abruptly asked,
"Youki-chan as in the Igarashi Hiroyouki who did the songs for Keio's dance team right? Remember me?"
"True, Iwata-senpai. I remember, wanted to greet you earlier, but I didn't see you around, gomenasai." I said.
"Naaah~ It's okay, besides it's good seeing you here." He answered. Everyone listen with interest to our little chat and Naoto-san said the word.
"Did you guys dated back then?" The rest waited for an answer.
"Nope" We jinx it together and cause laughter.
I smiled and said, "Senpai dated my twin sister though." Silence again.
"Igarashi Hiroyui-desu." said Yui-chan who came out of nowhere. Iwata-senpai was truly shocked seeing her there.
"Youki, you should told me earlier, don't you think...?" Asked Yui-chan.
"Gomen, didn't have time." I answered. Iwata-senpai laughed.
Everyone must be shocked. We don't have the same face, not even the same figure. I was adopted and our birthdays match with each other. Only then my name was changed. We were three years old. My real-parent died in an accident. They were best friends with Yui's parent which are now my adoptive-parent. That is why I called Hiro-san, Hiro-san stead of uncle. It came out as habit due to me being unwanted by our grandmother. Yui-chan didn't go to Keio, she went to Bunka for fashion. How she met Iwata-senpai was because her ex-boyfriend were in the same dance team with him. Yes it's true. I have a playgirl as my twins.
The PV recording goes smoothly and for all time Iwata-senpai stand besides me. We chat bits and bites. Yuo-chan was busy circling the men for attentions. I kinda let her be, since it's her nature. Iwata-senpai too took note to let her be. At 5 a.m. in the morning it ended and I excused myself only to find Iwata-senpai walking me home.
"Your songs. They sounded great. Arigatou."
"Not really, it's the voices that made them great, but thank you for that. How's life senpai?"
"Good and bad I guess. Sorry that we lost contacts"
"hmmm, I was the one who was M.I.A. anyway, so yeah gomen-ne"
With that his fingers intertwined with mine. Though I know it gonna hurt me in the very near future, I choose to stay that way. I miss these moments anyway. We're not dating. We were just being with each other. That was how we could stayed being in Keio and do what we loved most, music and dance. Unlike Iwata-senpai, I have the responsibility to stay in Keio as proof to my grandmother that I'm not playing around and wasted money. Being adopted doesn't really gives me any choices. We walked the night talking bout stuffs we missed and what may be for us in the future.
" I heard C.O.S.M.O.S. Was that like BFG?" He asked me while moving behind me and hugged me.
"Quite like it. An unreachable love may it seems. Why? You guys can do the choreo right?" Facing him and I sat down on the grass.
"We can, of course we can, it's just.." He came and sat in front of me.
"It's just hard to imagine what must you've gone through. Sadness and how lonely you must be.."
"I'm okay. Iwata-senpai I'm used to it. Have you meet-up with the other? I met Sakurai-senpai awhile back."
"I did too. He is definitely something! Being able to newcasting these while. I'm so proud to be his Kouhai."
"Me too. It was good that we're together now. We can definitely meet the other more often than before."
"Together?"
"Huh? Together means we are in contacts now right? Senpai?" I hope I didn't blush and if I do, I hope he didn't catched it.
But he did. His lips were already on mine. Both his hand already holding me tight. As he kissed me, I can feel that he's smiling since I let him kissed me. He asked for more and I gave in. I let him explored me and he hold me tighter. Only then I realised, someone might see us. My hands reach for his face to stop him.
"Why?"
"Someone might snaps pictures and you're done."
"Oh, okay. Let's go then"
"Where?"
"Your apartment... Can I?"
"Huh? But..?!"
"We'll just talk, eat and sleep next to each other kayh, we'll take this slow. I promise!" He said as we stand. Few minutes later we were already in my room. I know I need to take this slow, but I guess we both longed for this. After only few words we back to making out.
"Gunchan, stop." I shocked myself hearing that coming out of my mouth as he kissed me deeper.
"You should really get used to that. It's what you call me in the first place stead of Iwata-senpai." Teasing me as he kissed my nape aiming to leave marks on it.
I smiled and he holds me stronger.
"I love you, Igarashi Hiroyouki." He whispered to my ears and kissed me again. I missed this too. I admit that this only happened once, right after he found out that Yui-chan was playing him. He barged into my room and kissed me. I pushed him and yet he kissed me again and said the very words I needed to hear. He knows, his heart longed for me, his brain been denying it to make it fair to Yui-chan. The next day I flew to the States to finish my degree without telling him. I came to Japan and came directly to L.D.H Inc. and sent to Okinawa for the musics. Meaning today was the very first day we met after that night.
We gasped for air after awhile, and Gunchan still holds me tight.
"You're mine, no matter where and when. No matter if we're apart, I'll wait for you to comeback."
"And I will do the same now and forever right?"
"Yup" And he kissed me lightly. We talked, kissed, hugged and laughed morning came.