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So, I am incredibly ready to get married - engaged.  I don't know how much longer I can wait for Houston to ask me so, I am certainly considering asking him.  I feel so frustrated and a little self conscious.  I have always wanted to be proposed to, it is something that I have dreamed about for a long time.  But I also really want to go ahead and start living, and I feel like I can not really do that until I get married for some reason.  That is such a silly thing to say, but I feel like I'm putting myself on hold until I get married.  And the fact that Houston has not asked me yet is starting to make me feel unhappy.  Uncherished.  Unworthy....I don't know.  And I am not sure what I need to do to make him want to marry me the way I want to marry him.  I guess that I should ask him.  That would be the smart thing.  Ask him if I am not enough for him, if that is why he hasn't asked me to marry him. . But just how do you go about something like that without essentially creating some kind of ultimatum?  I don't want things to change for the worse.  It seems like we are ready to start our lives together and to me that means marriage.  I don't want to buy a house and things like that until I am married.
Should I just ask him to marry me or should I ask him why he hasn't asked me?
I really need advice on what to do.