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haven't updated in ages.
luq went to Perth. looks cool. can't believe he got to see MCR live before me.
HIX is going some troubles i guess. meh. i'm just glad i wasn't the only one who felt that way about the whole thing.
aidah and i is.. well.. nothing. :) i have no idea where i stand. no idea what to do. know idea what she wants. it seems that everything i do would end up being wrong and lessen my chances with her. damn. but i'm not gonna give up :) its funny. i never actually saw myself as putting so much dedication into getting an ex back. to me, its just further proof that aidah is the one i'm meant to be with.
what i do know is that THE guy won Blast Off. and if he goes for her.. well, its not a tough choice who to choose. a soon to be celebrity or an emo loser ;) lol.
i'm getting too screwed up for my own good la. the other day i had a fight with aidah, and i had this total breakdown, that i just COULDN'T be alone, or be in nilai at the same time coz aidah is around. so i took a loooonnngg drive to Hartamas just to see my friends perform. i just needed to get out. needed the company. i didnt tell anyone what i was going through though. just needed to be around people. coz i was so scared of what would've happened if i was alone. lol. dramatic.
my friends make fun of my emo-ness. but i don't really care. coz basically anything they make fun of is true. i do go through all that. and i do do it too. so no point in denying it.
i'm slightly proud of myself in a way. vvvveeeeerrrrryyyy slightly la. i'm kinda able to not talk about anything i'm going through with my friends. i mean they've had enough of me moping so i'm doing a slightly better job at acting happy then before. but still hard with aidah. i mean i still pour my heart out to her. which is bad. very.
recently met some of my old KDU friends as well as Husna and KD. it was.. surprising. i'm glad they're all civil to me. its more then i deserve. especially husna. i mean we're slowly able to talk to each other. haha. perasan gila izrin.
i'm addicted to Heroes. and Harry Potter. and Chiodos. and Calvin and Hobbes.
i want her back.. i really do..
luq went to Perth. looks cool. can't believe he got to see MCR live before me.
HIX is going some troubles i guess. meh. i'm just glad i wasn't the only one who felt that way about the whole thing.
aidah and i is.. well.. nothing. :) i have no idea where i stand. no idea what to do. know idea what she wants. it seems that everything i do would end up being wrong and lessen my chances with her. damn. but i'm not gonna give up :) its funny. i never actually saw myself as putting so much dedication into getting an ex back. to me, its just further proof that aidah is the one i'm meant to be with.
what i do know is that THE guy won Blast Off. and if he goes for her.. well, its not a tough choice who to choose. a soon to be celebrity or an emo loser ;) lol.
i'm getting too screwed up for my own good la. the other day i had a fight with aidah, and i had this total breakdown, that i just COULDN'T be alone, or be in nilai at the same time coz aidah is around. so i took a loooonnngg drive to Hartamas just to see my friends perform. i just needed to get out. needed the company. i didnt tell anyone what i was going through though. just needed to be around people. coz i was so scared of what would've happened if i was alone. lol. dramatic.
my friends make fun of my emo-ness. but i don't really care. coz basically anything they make fun of is true. i do go through all that. and i do do it too. so no point in denying it.
i'm slightly proud of myself in a way. vvvveeeeerrrrryyyy slightly la. i'm kinda able to not talk about anything i'm going through with my friends. i mean they've had enough of me moping so i'm doing a slightly better job at acting happy then before. but still hard with aidah. i mean i still pour my heart out to her. which is bad. very.
recently met some of my old KDU friends as well as Husna and KD. it was.. surprising. i'm glad they're all civil to me. its more then i deserve. especially husna. i mean we're slowly able to talk to each other. haha. perasan gila izrin.
i'm addicted to Heroes. and Harry Potter. and Chiodos. and Calvin and Hobbes.
i want her back.. i really do..