God save the queen
well I'm kinda buzzed, 9 beers and I'm not close to being drunk. This week has been fuckin stupid. Monday and Tuesday I had to go around delivering phone books to all the crackheads in town. I was surprised to see that there are a lot of rich as neighborhoods here, where people have giant three story houses and fountains and what not, it reminds me of Palo Alto. Then I got hit on by a huge crackwhore who had prison tats and no front teeth. Almost get attacked by a big German Shephard. Drank a lot friday and watched the Cubs game, went to the airshow on base today and it sucked ass. Tried to hook up with a girl and got shot down like a Syrian MIG. Tried to watch the cubs game tonight, realized I really don't care and now i'm just fucking out of it. I wish I had a car cause if I did I would drive west and just keep going til I found something worth stopping for. Only a few more weeks til I actually have a car, I wonder what I'll do when I actually have one. I keep sitting around just thinking about the absurd life I live...and I wonder if this is even me that I'm experienceing, or if its something greater, or lesser..or anything. Fuck I don't know really. I just don't know and I don't know if I even care what happens.I might be out of here in a few months the way I'm going. Who knows. It'd probably be for the better...