new YouTube
I have a new Youtube as I have decided on a slight change of....... name [well, pen name]...
http://www.youtube.com/izalixe
I used to go by Iza Straightshooter since around 2007. It coincided around the period when I moved out of Gaétan's apartment [in a police car, WITH my CAT, straight to the ER - he hadnt hurt me but I had a cyst that decided to explode just when we were having a real bad argument...... anyways....]
At that time I found myself all alone in recovery, I had tons of pills to take first for my physical injury then insomnia & depression, I got into this defensive mode, bought a katana like in Kill Bill and basically considered myself a samurai.
I guess Gaetan still viewed it as a threat.
I meant by it that I was going straight to the point, straightforward, hitting the bullet, dans la mire, shooting arrows straight through your heart, was my motto. I think he took it more like a 12-gauge shot in the face or something...... wrong image.
Every time we'd have a bad argument, he would call me Straightshooter in a demeaning way.
I myself started to not like the "gun" associations that could be made with the name. At first I wanted a punchy name easy to remember that I wouldnt have to spell [I spent my life spelling my fuckin name], and changing the s for a Z in my first name seemed more edgy. People grew to calling me Iza, and spelling my name Izabelle [it's not legally changed, though I hope to someday.. to change first AND last, may be easier after I'm published and known by that name]
It bothered me that Gaetan found my name offensive. I think he thought it was a bit pretentious or aggressant. Maybe it was. I had made up a graphic signature to go with it: a capital I with an arrow across, an arrow across a heart and, when I write it all along, an arrow that went in a straight line all the way above "Straightshooter", crossing the 3 "t's" with a star on the "i" as a dot.
Yesterday I had a flash: a softer, less "threathening" name that still keeps all the imagery and signatures I want: Straightheart. Still 3 t's to cross off, arrow stays, heart stays. Since I had lost a syllable on the last name I figured I'd hang one on the first name [sounds better methinks] and I always had something about the Izalice.... [combination of Iza (Isabelle) and Alice.... everytime I read it I think of "lice"..... like head lice you know..... so... I changed it to Izalixe. I think it looks and sounds great!!!! I can even have a quick paraph for signing tons of books when the line will be long: capital I with small x :)))))
So yeah now I have to change my email, Facebook, Youtube, LJ etc cause I like to have my stuff with the right name... the Lj will wait cuz I'm flat broke and I dont want to lose it I'll do a username change and it's 15$. Maybe next month. I need to get more icons too [paid account], all my good ones are blocked and I dont want to delete others to access them, and I'm looking into getting a domain name.
Not this month though as I'm almost not going out and I cant even afford to get my buss pass this month :((
Hopefully Gaétan can have a good paycheck and spoil me a bit next weekend [my body - I said my BODY, not the rest- is turning 34..... can you believe this ruin?]
I had a new idea for a novel yesterday. Which amounts the number of little folded pieces of paper in my Pyrex measuring cup to 20 titles in all. I just dont know which one to pick to work on.. . really!
Since Monday I had absolutely no energy I was litterally sleeping 22 hours a day, the rest of the time occupied by going to the toilet, filling up my bottle of water and drink it up, and put another Jimmy Stewart movie on VLC. I mustve had a virus. I was feeling so demotivated like my life was worthless and I was never gonna do anything in my life and I was crying and all. The flu is VICIOUS this year! NO JOKE.
I think it's getting better since yesterday though. Me & Gaétan had a long talk on the phone and he started texting me and I love it! We had been in a "slump" romantically since a while... back since the summer actually and it's kinda worrying, I know it's over 5 years and he's 50 but for christ's sakes....... as if the magic wasnt there anymore..... and I felt terrible cuz I did all kinds of things that normally are supposed to produce some kind of.....sparks? and nothing worked. Because I guess it was a question of attitude. I made my first ever powerpoint thingie about bare trees and how the fruit will grow back in the spring and blah blah blah. Sounds really cheesy but I actually had fun doing it. We're gonna be okay. I wish I could post the .pps thingie here but I have no idea how??!
It's just freaking cold and I'm broke and it's boring. [we dont even have CABLE in this house, remember! The only shows I watch are internet diffusions/reruns and downloaded movies!!! and like Jeopardy and the news!]
BUT! I have my GIFT from me to me to open still! [I forgot it in a cupboard, still wrapped!] Richard Belzer's second novel, "I am not a psychic!" [I warmly recommend the first one, "I am not a Cop!" very funny and lots of adventure! Richard Belzer plays Detective John Munch on Law & Order SVU and I love him!!!!!!!
ok my wrists hurt I've been on this updating email Youtube etc for hours all night long. Hot chocolate break! And a nap! It's 9 am!!!!
OHHHHH If you guys have a Youtube account tell me your username so I can subscribe to you and watch your videos!! I LOVE home videos. I was making the kind of videos people upload now to Youtube when VHS were still used in cameras.
Home movie queen!!!!
sorry about this wall of text but I have no new pictures whatsoever to upload!!!
http://www.youtube.com/izalixe
I used to go by Iza Straightshooter since around 2007. It coincided around the period when I moved out of Gaétan's apartment [in a police car, WITH my CAT, straight to the ER - he hadnt hurt me but I had a cyst that decided to explode just when we were having a real bad argument...... anyways....]
At that time I found myself all alone in recovery, I had tons of pills to take first for my physical injury then insomnia & depression, I got into this defensive mode, bought a katana like in Kill Bill and basically considered myself a samurai.
I guess Gaetan still viewed it as a threat.
I meant by it that I was going straight to the point, straightforward, hitting the bullet, dans la mire, shooting arrows straight through your heart, was my motto. I think he took it more like a 12-gauge shot in the face or something...... wrong image.
Every time we'd have a bad argument, he would call me Straightshooter in a demeaning way.
I myself started to not like the "gun" associations that could be made with the name. At first I wanted a punchy name easy to remember that I wouldnt have to spell [I spent my life spelling my fuckin name], and changing the s for a Z in my first name seemed more edgy. People grew to calling me Iza, and spelling my name Izabelle [it's not legally changed, though I hope to someday.. to change first AND last, may be easier after I'm published and known by that name]
It bothered me that Gaetan found my name offensive. I think he thought it was a bit pretentious or aggressant. Maybe it was. I had made up a graphic signature to go with it: a capital I with an arrow across, an arrow across a heart and, when I write it all along, an arrow that went in a straight line all the way above "Straightshooter", crossing the 3 "t's" with a star on the "i" as a dot.
Yesterday I had a flash: a softer, less "threathening" name that still keeps all the imagery and signatures I want: Straightheart. Still 3 t's to cross off, arrow stays, heart stays. Since I had lost a syllable on the last name I figured I'd hang one on the first name [sounds better methinks] and I always had something about the Izalice.... [combination of Iza (Isabelle) and Alice.... everytime I read it I think of "lice"..... like head lice you know..... so... I changed it to Izalixe. I think it looks and sounds great!!!! I can even have a quick paraph for signing tons of books when the line will be long: capital I with small x :)))))
So yeah now I have to change my email, Facebook, Youtube, LJ etc cause I like to have my stuff with the right name... the Lj will wait cuz I'm flat broke and I dont want to lose it I'll do a username change and it's 15$. Maybe next month. I need to get more icons too [paid account], all my good ones are blocked and I dont want to delete others to access them, and I'm looking into getting a domain name.
Not this month though as I'm almost not going out and I cant even afford to get my buss pass this month :((
Hopefully Gaétan can have a good paycheck and spoil me a bit next weekend [my body - I said my BODY, not the rest- is turning 34..... can you believe this ruin?]
I had a new idea for a novel yesterday. Which amounts the number of little folded pieces of paper in my Pyrex measuring cup to 20 titles in all. I just dont know which one to pick to work on.. . really!
Since Monday I had absolutely no energy I was litterally sleeping 22 hours a day, the rest of the time occupied by going to the toilet, filling up my bottle of water and drink it up, and put another Jimmy Stewart movie on VLC. I mustve had a virus. I was feeling so demotivated like my life was worthless and I was never gonna do anything in my life and I was crying and all. The flu is VICIOUS this year! NO JOKE.
I think it's getting better since yesterday though. Me & Gaétan had a long talk on the phone and he started texting me and I love it! We had been in a "slump" romantically since a while... back since the summer actually and it's kinda worrying, I know it's over 5 years and he's 50 but for christ's sakes....... as if the magic wasnt there anymore..... and I felt terrible cuz I did all kinds of things that normally are supposed to produce some kind of.....sparks? and nothing worked. Because I guess it was a question of attitude. I made my first ever powerpoint thingie about bare trees and how the fruit will grow back in the spring and blah blah blah. Sounds really cheesy but I actually had fun doing it. We're gonna be okay. I wish I could post the .pps thingie here but I have no idea how??!
It's just freaking cold and I'm broke and it's boring. [we dont even have CABLE in this house, remember! The only shows I watch are internet diffusions/reruns and downloaded movies!!! and like Jeopardy and the news!]
BUT! I have my GIFT from me to me to open still! [I forgot it in a cupboard, still wrapped!] Richard Belzer's second novel, "I am not a psychic!" [I warmly recommend the first one, "I am not a Cop!" very funny and lots of adventure! Richard Belzer plays Detective John Munch on Law & Order SVU and I love him!!!!!!!
ok my wrists hurt I've been on this updating email Youtube etc for hours all night long. Hot chocolate break! And a nap! It's 9 am!!!!
OHHHHH If you guys have a Youtube account tell me your username so I can subscribe to you and watch your videos!! I LOVE home videos. I was making the kind of videos people upload now to Youtube when VHS were still used in cameras.
Home movie queen!!!!
sorry about this wall of text but I have no new pictures whatsoever to upload!!!