Ugly
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My best friend on campus, Ariel, is being terminated. She's not even being displaced; she's being terminated... because her intern status isn't up until the summer. Her last paycheck is July 5 and she just found out today. She was going to help me run the academy next year; she volunteered to do LINK. I guess that's done. The best science teacher we've hired recently is also out. Ariel went home for the rest of the day in tears, feeling like a failure. I don't even think the science teacher knows.
I don't think I've ever felt demoralized for such a prolonged period of time before. It's horrible and heartbreaking and makes me feel like I can't function at all. I just want to go home, curl up into a little ball on the couch with my cat, eat chocolate, and pretend like I don't have to be a grownup for a while.
You know... the Tibetan Buddhists believe that when we die, we get a "life review." Not only do we RE-experience our lives, but we experience all of the karmic reactions we've caused in others through our actions. If that is the case -- and I hope it IS this time -- I hope that George Bush, Dick Cheney, Karl Rove, and all the rest of the motherfuckers who caused this mess feel it with acute intensity as they head into their last breath. I hope they linger in irrevocable pain and anguish over the exponential grief they have caused their nation and the world. I hope they reach through their tears for the light at the end of the tunnel, and I hope they reach it with bloodied knees, begging for forgiveness, only to hear their God say, "Fuck you, Assholes."
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My best friend on campus, Ariel, is being terminated. She's not even being displaced; she's being terminated... because her intern status isn't up until the summer. Her last paycheck is July 5 and she just found out today. She was going to help me run the academy next year; she volunteered to do LINK. I guess that's done. The best science teacher we've hired recently is also out. Ariel went home for the rest of the day in tears, feeling like a failure. I don't even think the science teacher knows.
I don't think I've ever felt demoralized for such a prolonged period of time before. It's horrible and heartbreaking and makes me feel like I can't function at all. I just want to go home, curl up into a little ball on the couch with my cat, eat chocolate, and pretend like I don't have to be a grownup for a while.
You know... the Tibetan Buddhists believe that when we die, we get a "life review." Not only do we RE-experience our lives, but we experience all of the karmic reactions we've caused in others through our actions. If that is the case -- and I hope it IS this time -- I hope that George Bush, Dick Cheney, Karl Rove, and all the rest of the motherfuckers who caused this mess feel it with acute intensity as they head into their last breath. I hope they linger in irrevocable pain and anguish over the exponential grief they have caused their nation and the world. I hope they reach through their tears for the light at the end of the tunnel, and I hope they reach it with bloodied knees, begging for forgiveness, only to hear their God say, "Fuck you, Assholes."
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