Death
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it's been coming up a lot the past few months. so many deaths. today, I went to the funeral of one of my old student's father. the mass was neither here nor there as I found the majority of it highly ingenuine. the burial, however, was the first time that i've ever been gathered around a real gravesite with mourners. it was mostly anti-climactic, sorry to say, but the moment I found moving -- although arguably morally reprehensible -- was when several members of the family released doves.
the first time I ever thought of a pack of birds flying as deeply mystical was, oddly enough, the last time I went to Disneyland and Axo and I were waiting for Fantasmic. I tried to photograph them flying. today was even more beautiful.
i've started to think that I need to start writing about death and what i'd like to have happen for me. not because I want, expect, or think it will happen soon; but because having my desires clearly stated will make it easier for all those left behind, should my death prove untimely. plus, i'd like the peace of mind in my last moments of knowing that people will be remembering/celebrating/mourning for me the way I would've liked them too.
and on that strange note, time for Cote D'Azur.
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it's been coming up a lot the past few months. so many deaths. today, I went to the funeral of one of my old student's father. the mass was neither here nor there as I found the majority of it highly ingenuine. the burial, however, was the first time that i've ever been gathered around a real gravesite with mourners. it was mostly anti-climactic, sorry to say, but the moment I found moving -- although arguably morally reprehensible -- was when several members of the family released doves.
the first time I ever thought of a pack of birds flying as deeply mystical was, oddly enough, the last time I went to Disneyland and Axo and I were waiting for Fantasmic. I tried to photograph them flying. today was even more beautiful.
i've started to think that I need to start writing about death and what i'd like to have happen for me. not because I want, expect, or think it will happen soon; but because having my desires clearly stated will make it easier for all those left behind, should my death prove untimely. plus, i'd like the peace of mind in my last moments of knowing that people will be remembering/celebrating/mourning for me the way I would've liked them too.
and on that strange note, time for Cote D'Azur.
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