thank GOD!

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today started off really crappy. i woke up at 6:00 and started to run upstairs and halfway there i realized i didnt have to wake up henry. i jus sat on the steps and cried. it hurt so bad cuz its hitting home hard core (not hard cordial lol). i miss him more and more and all the stupid little stuff i do makes me think of him. like how he used to tease me about how i ate cereal.. how dumb is that? neways i went to school and made it thru most of first period gym but i felt like i was guna puke. i got to talk to mrs. bednar about everything with henry. shes such an awesome lady. shes so caring and shes helped a lot. she told me a lotta things.. anyways i ended up going to the nurse and she called my mom (who thought i was faking it but came to get me anyways). im so sick and tired of being bombarded with questions about henry, marbey and olger. if u were supposed to know about it u would kno! god! and people that have no idea what the hell they're talking about keep spreading wrong information. shut up if u dont know whats going on! URG!.. sigh anyways i didnt even make it home before i puked. i jumped outta my moms car at the redlight at bridgewater and brookhaven and puked my guts out in front of some little girl (who was like ewwww mommy loooook!) in a van. i went home and passed out. i woke up later and resolved to make henrys dad talk to me. so i called from a number he wouldnt know and (thank god!) he picked up. henry will be going home on the 11th or 12th and his dad is going to let me see him. i broke down and started to cry on the phone and i couldnt stop thanking him. what hurt the most is that i had no closure. like i miss allan and deibey and greiven and cesar and elisa but i got to say goodbye to them all. i didnt get to do that with henry. he was jus kinda ripped out of my life. now his dad is going to let me see him.. its a huge relief. i also got to speak with allan on aim (and srry but im not supposed to give out his sn to anyone who wasnt hosting). hes amazingly sweet. hes supposed to call sometime tonite (hopefully he will) and i hope we can talk for a lil while. man i miss them all so bad. o0o and senora haines called to see how i was doing which i think was pretty nice of her. i think shes getting in trouble because of the people who arent in school.. anyways thank u brit and sarah for checkin up on me. also thank u to dan a for being such a huge help. he really rox. and to amber. u totally rock and im so glad we got to spend time together; we all need to do it more often. im so0o sry i forgot u in the other entry but ive been a bundle of emotions. thanx to all the people who actually noticed me not being in school (rob s, chris m, bud, dan, ash, n others) cuz ur ims actually made me feel better :). anyways im guna go call eric (who is also extrememly kickass mite i add). thank u all for ur support and help. i love u guys!

con mucho amor,
lyss