and i j/ wanna be alone...
shitty shitty shitty<~~~~~~how abbey feels right now!!!
i wish i knew what the hell was wrong with me. like i was doin fine, me and amby went and got zza's and had a talk about her and chris and i know that prolly didnt make her happy but i was j/ trying to help. but i was still feeling ok but after i got back and got out of the shower i feel like absolute shit. i think too much in the shower.
im letting stupid shit bring me down and it pisses me off. i should know myself best but it j/ doesnt feel like it anymore. i feel like sometimes my friends know me better, or sometimes that no one really knows me. idk, i j/ hurt really bad right now and the tears feel really good...that alcohol in my fridge is callin my name, but its not gonna pull me in, not tonight at least.
i dont want to become like i was sophomore year but that familiar beaten path is once again showing its face.
i j/ need to be happy for what i have, i have awesome friends, a nice family, a sweet boyfriend, and a whole lot more, i j/ have to keep telling myself that nothing is as important as those people in my life, its j/ hard when ur heart j/ wont let you be happy.
i wish i knew what the hell was wrong with me. like i was doin fine, me and amby went and got zza's and had a talk about her and chris and i know that prolly didnt make her happy but i was j/ trying to help. but i was still feeling ok but after i got back and got out of the shower i feel like absolute shit. i think too much in the shower.
im letting stupid shit bring me down and it pisses me off. i should know myself best but it j/ doesnt feel like it anymore. i feel like sometimes my friends know me better, or sometimes that no one really knows me. idk, i j/ hurt really bad right now and the tears feel really good...that alcohol in my fridge is callin my name, but its not gonna pull me in, not tonight at least.
i dont want to become like i was sophomore year but that familiar beaten path is once again showing its face.
i j/ need to be happy for what i have, i have awesome friends, a nice family, a sweet boyfriend, and a whole lot more, i j/ have to keep telling myself that nothing is as important as those people in my life, its j/ hard when ur heart j/ wont let you be happy.