"the drama never ends"
so I'm still alive. I just don't ever have time to write in this stupid thing anymore. Well I'm 18 today...it feels the same as 17. I didn't do anything today. We did my little family "get together" before my mom left. So I went to church and then went home and just say around. A couple of people called to wish me a happy birthday...thx Chantelle, Jane and DeeDee!! Jennifer brought me cupcakes...thank you. Others that mean a lot to me decided that briefly saying happy birthday as they walked by me in the hall at church was enough. I'm sorry but I think that I deserved a little bit more than that from that person than a detached non-caring question. But oh well...I guess I should have seen it coming. So I wasn't very nice to that person in their LJ. I said some things that I've been thinking for a while but was too nice not to say them. I regret it now but I was angry at the moment. Oh well...I suppose those bridges are burnt...even though the hollow comments and promises of friendship are still being made...5 minutes ago to be exact. They are nothing more to me now than that. Empty and hollow promises of friendship and love...with no real attempt to live up to those promises in sight. I really regret that things have worked out this way. But I know that for the most part I did my part...the fact that I wasn't met half-way wasn't my fault. But I take back what I said earlier...I'm glad I went to mutual that night. And I hope and pray for a change of heart...for both of us...
A very melancholy end to my big 1-8...
A very melancholy end to my big 1-8...