I love you all and mean it

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i dont quite know what to do to make people understand how important everyone is to me. ive had a lot of complaints lately about me not being appreciative, or just seeming like i talk to people when im bored, or that i dont really care about them. this entry isnt about all of you obviously, and its not about one person either, its not directed at anybody. last night was just a final straw that made me realize maybe i am doing something wrong. and i just cant put my finger on it. i know im busy a lot and i do stupid things and im bored easily and blah blah blah but i cant help it. i also know that maybe sometimes i say things i dont mean, ive always been far to outspoken its one of my greatest faults. honest. i dont knooooooooow anymore life is so confusing. one second youve got control and youre ok. then the next second everything thinks differently. someone HELP me lol im going insane. and im sick. so this sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. tomorrow im gonna have makeup work and NOBODY likes makup work. it just means ill be busy doing 230948320948 more hours of homework YAY woohoo.....score. i dont know. and if people read this PLEASE dont take offense if you believe im talking about you, because im not. its happened plenty of times over the years honest. and to most of you it doesnt even apply. its mainly myself im not angry at anyone, im just realizing maybe i am bad at this whole friend thing. who knows. sometimes i just wish that i was born knowing how to fix everything so i wouldnt have to feel like this you know?...golly gee damn im frutrated wish myself.

but as of now i must be off...

love to all of you,
Cassie