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[ixlovexryan_]

well.. today was the biggest waste of a day. i was trying to have a good time before my cousins left. and i did. but then other gamily came up. ughh, they are soooo annoying. you dont even know. then we took my family from out of town to the airport. it was sad that they had to leave. but at the same time it was nice cuz it wasnt so loud. well. i wish they were here. because i didnt do anything today. i wanted to. but i couldnt have anyone over. apparantely people went to jon's. ok. well i wish i could have. hmm... i wish i was invited. w/e. i know how ryan feels when people never invite him. it fucking sucks. i mean i invite ryan. but if he doesnt get invited. i know how he feels then. it really fucking sucks.i dont want anyone to feel that way. w/e. screw it. maybe i'm just to "cool" for you guys. ya that must be it. cuz you know thats how i always act. too cool for you guys. psh. i dont think im too cool for you guys. i mean cmon. how could i think im too coolfor you guys. if i was too cool for you guys id go hang out iwth benny all the time. but i dont see myself as that and i hang out with you. w/e. its dumb.

even though im extremely mad and dissapointed. i just want to say sorry to people who i have seemed that im too cool for them. i dont mean it. i dont realize it. i dont think it. w/e. sometimes i just wish that i cdould go back to middle school. everything was good back then. i mean it is now. but idk. it just seemed better back then. oh well. high school is better. its just harder.

people can we please do something tomorrow day. at night im going to my grandmas i believe. idk. i might be able to get out of that. but can we do something tomorrow. i cant do it at my house.

josh