Doing good...
Back again to write some things about my day, Man, I'm getting pretty good at this. I guess because I love to write, other then the last few journals I have had. They weren't much, I guess that shows that I have grown up, huh? I like it. Ha ha. Okay well anyways, Everythings going along pretty smoothly, I think the group I had is starting to come back into play. I guess we all just needed a break from each other. A months break, well we have been together like every single day this summer, for like 5 months straight, so that is understandable. I just saw one of my girls today, and there doing pretty good, as of how they where before, so that's all good. She told me to call at 9:30 tonight, so I would assume where hanging out tonight, I really hope so, I miss those guys a lot. I mean it's so wierd, you never realize what something means to you when it's gone. I never really understood that till now, and another predictament like that. I think the guy that was around before is coming back. We haven't talked for like 3 months, and it's mostly because he wanted to just stop being an asshole to everybody, because he realizes what it's doing to him. He's losing most of his friends. So I guess he figured that he's the one that has to change. I'm glad he's back though, I think things are going to be different, but the same in a way. I don't know because when I saw him last night, I just saw this look in his eyes. I don't know it just felt so wierd, it's like I said things when we got into the fight, before we stopped talking, but it's more like he thinks he knows he deserved what was said, because his eyes where saying he's sorry to me. I don't know, but they were saying something that made me melt, I think he missed me when I was gone too. I don't know, I have to ask him that. In a way I'm happy he's back, but I'm a little scared. I don't know why I'm scared though, because I could tell he has changed, there's something about him, he's a lot more calmer (if that made any sense). I like the new change. But for the problem all of this, the main reason I'm scared, I really started liking this guy A LOT from work. I think I like this new guy more, but I don't want to hurt the other guy. I swear soon as there is nobody, I didn't have an interest in anybody at the time, a week or two later, I think it was two, I get one, and then a week later, he comes back. Back to the beginning, well not all the way back, there are a lot of people I don't want back, especially two of them. Well anyways, work went well, I was surprised at myself today, I felt good. One of the manager/bookeeper type people went on break and went on my register to buy stuff, and then I was doing fine, I didn't need a pickup at all, and then she comes back from being on break, and then like 15 minutes later, I'm locked. So I was doing pretty damn good. I was soo happy, I felt so accomplished. Ha ha, I'm such a loser. Well I'm going to go in the shower right now, and hope that I am going out tonight. I really hope I do I miss those guys like CRAZY. Well, you know what, you should comment on at least one of these journals. I write a lot, come on you can do it. I'm just kidding, you don't have to, as long as you read it I'm fine. I am soo addicted to this song, Papa Roach - Scars... I can't stop listening to it.