Is today national drama day?

[ixheartxkandii]

So I am reading Ashleigh's journal and it is like WHOA lets all talk shit. I miss the days when Star and Erica were still friends and Star could have a girlfriend without the girl having a prob with Erica. I miss it when we could all just get along. Well I know EVERYONE didn't always get along but I miss it when most of us did. I miss Murder and I

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[cyanide_k1ssez]

gurlie,
i dont think neyone realizes that i dont give a fuck if stars in love with her or not! obviously. i never had a problem with him going out with her until shit happened between me and her THATS IT i didnt care everyone thinks i want the damn kid to be miserable i would give my fuckin world for him to be happie and its never enough...or it seems like it..people alwayz twist my words around to things i dont mean and im not putting the blame on you for it at all baby cuz you know i love you, your my little girl. i could never hurt you. but what no one notices is that im not putting anyone in the middle of anything im not making him choose i never wanted him to and i never will. but if it comes down to him hating me in the end for something that honestly i would never take back than fine, or him not talking to me than FINE. maybe its for the best cuz it seems like ALL i do is fuck up this kids life..even tho i was the one bak in the day trying to save him from falling.....and yes i do miss those days also it just seems so distant. and we all know that it wont come back.....i love you gurlie and never forget that! you are my lil baby gurl i never wanted you to get involved in this........

<333
Momma

[ixheartxkandii]

Mommy,
I tried not to get involved but as much as I try it is just never enough. I read too and everytime I read these journals it just makes me upset. Remember when I was telling you about the pics I have? I know you do, it was only two days ago. But everytime I look at those I just get flashbacks. I think of how it used to be when everything was fucking gravy. I miss it so much. I love you so much mama, and I love Pete too. I just miss it you know. And it fucking BLOWS that I can't think of you two as Erica and Pete best friends for life. I miss it. I know you do too. I miss everything about how it all used to be. I don't care if speaking my mind causes drama... If people are that immature then fuck em'. Pete is my family. You are my family. I miss FAMILY. I miss how everyone used to watch over.

It sucks how nothing will ever be the same.

baby girl

[pukesonalex]

im sorry about everything.i mean it has nothing to do with you but, it should bother you because things have changed since i came around and your use to how things use to be. but you know this, you know the shit i have to go thru everyday and how bad it bothers me and how stressed out i get. you know ive never done anything but try to to be friends with everyone. how'd i become such good friends with you? im really not a bitch, im actually a nice girl. i want friends,i dont want problems, i equally love each and everyone and im thankful for the people who are my friends. i have great friends. but the people who arn't my friends i mean it hurts because i just dont understand. people are so fake and hateful to say the things they say on my live journal, and of course i say somthing mean back because i get so heated because i just dont understand so yea i have to talk shit back, because im not gonna let someone get away with treating me like shit when i DONT deserve it. all i want is to be happy with Star. hes a great guy and things are so good between us right now and im trying to block out the drama and let it go but this drama just gets to me and it hurts because i dont understand why people hate on me for NO REASON. ive done nothing to Erica but try to get along with her, and be a friend to her. The stuff i said yesterday in the comment i didnt mean it from my heart but it was just because i was angry. alot of people say things when they're angry that they really dont mean. but i mean it just gets out of hand, why does this drama go on for days.it seems like i always have to deal with the drama and bullshit.when out of everyone I DONT WANT IT!i just dont get it?i want to get along with everyone, and out of everybody i wanted to get along with Erica, Emily and Chico the most because those are Star's closest friends. ive tried so hard to be such friends with them. i guess they are just different then me. they just really dont care!!! at this point tho im done!i really dont care and Star doesn't either. He's knows i try, he even talks to me and hes like "baby im sorry you have to deal with this bullshit its not fair to you and i wish it would just all go away". but i tell him he doesn't understand because it happens to me not him. he doesn't know what its like to have to deal with shit like this everyday. and its all because of me and him being *together*! like why cant we just be happy. i mean when we do block everything out and we just hold eachother we're happy as hell.happier then happy!its amazing the time we have together. and the ONLY times we have PROBLEMS is when someone comments something stupid on my journal or calls me at 4 in the morning talking shit, which as slowly died down.THANK GOD. we'll be fine, we'll work thru this, look how far we've came already which i never thought would of happend. but i glad because i care about that kid with all my heart no matter what any of you people think. i wish i really did get along with Erica and Emily. Me and Chico are fine, there's no problem there, never was i talked to him the other day we're straight.i mean look at it how i see it. i've never had a problem with any of Star's "guy friends" and any of his girl "friends" that have never liked him. ANY GIRL THATS EVER "LIKED" HIM...i've had problems with because they're just being HATERS because im his gf. i mean ive gotten to the point of wanting to end this because of people starting drama and i think about when i didnt have to deal with this. but i realized IM STRONGER THEN THAT.thats what they all want, they want me and star to break up thats why they start this shit. but it just makes me want it even more because they'll never have it. me and star will make this work weither anyone likes it or not. things arn't suppose to be the same, things CHANGE, life moves on, people GROW UP, and START LIVING LIFE!! thats what im doing i wish everyone could do that with me and just get on with there lifes and leave the stupid idiotic bullshit drama ALONE! well if anything Little Alex always know that i love you and ill always be your big sis, im here for you whenever,ill call you after school, well i have to go to the doctors again so ill call you when i get home from that okay! I LOVE YOU LIL MAMA!!

<3ur big sis

Re: baby girl

[ixheartxkandii]

Ashleigh,
You have to understand that people are going to comment on your journal because of the things you write. Why don't you do the mature thing and NOT answer them, and do not post things that you know will cause people to comment. Delete the comments I mean jeez, it is YOUR journal.... You can delete them. I'll talk to you when you get out of school.
Love,
Little Alex