Trying...Losing

[ixfoughtxthelaw]

i dont think im doing a bad job of managing all i have to deal with on a daily basis...atleast i diddnt until today...i try my best to make sure everything gets done...and everyones happy...specifically one person...i hate the idea that im not doing that...try harder i suppose...i dont want to let her down...eh...i wish i had more to write...well...i have plently to write...wording it right now is a bit of a challenge...normally i dont have a problem getting across whatever it is im trying to communicate...but that seems to be happening lately...i guess im getting lost in my own mess...i dont know...i dont know which way is up or which way is down anymore...im just holding my breath and praying for the best...i guess if a year from now im not dead...i'll know im doing something right

-Jon