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Ookay, well, it's been fourteen and a half internet-years since any of you have heard from me, right? Not my fault. Work + School (a few classes, not many) + Family = No Time For You Hooligans. Plus, this is the first time since August I haven't felt just totally NOT wanting to deal with people. Soak it up, kids, I don't know how long this Anti-Anti-social mood will last!
It's just the mood of the season, I think. My kids officially survive their first year of life at the end of the month, good for them. I officially survive twenty six years of life in December, good for me. The celebration of my homeland is in Mid November, hoorah. Riku gets older, but don't tell him I told you, awesome and shit. Christmas and New Year's at the end of it all, fan-fucking-tastic.
Still, had my accident in November, lost my eye and my grandmother the NEXT November, Hope died last year in December, Kerrigan died in December, and... well... it's just a depressing time of year. That, and I'm worried about two things...
Dilan isn't nearly as active as he should be. He's real lazy and shit, right? That may just be his personality (god I hope not) but that's also a reeeeaaaally good indicator that the poor kid inherited my grandmother's heart disease. He's not old enough to say, "Mommy, my chest hurts" or "Daddy, I can't breathe" but he can refuse to do much of anything. I hadn't noticed it at first, but when Granddad stopped by to visit while on a business trip, he pointed it out. I hope it's just two protective men worrying over laziness, but just to be sure, I'm taking him home to Radiant Garden in two weeks to have him checked out. I'd rather catch it now and do something about it before it cripples him at a young age, or just rest well at night knowing he's getting his Couch Potato years out of the way early.
The other thing bothering me is this giant fucking THING growing beside my eye. Okay, it's not GIANT, but it sure feels like it. It's probably the size of a pea or something, if I'm as good at this as I like to think myself. It's horrifically painful and it keeps making me tear up. Where it is, I can only move my eye a certain direction either way, so not only is my vision now limited to a significantly small area of space, it's also blurry and watery, and in the best interest of everyone on the road I'm at the mercy of walking and friends and family to get me places. That said, thanks everyone!
And a note of advice for all of you out there... if you're like me and when depressed, suffer from bouts of compulsive buying, stick to purchasing guns or cars or whatever... not genital piercings. Certainly not MORE genital piercings. I can't tell what my dick looks like more- a ladder with metal rungs and a bell at the top, or the most phallic Christmas tree in the world. At least the lady likes it. She made me pay for the six weeks of not being able to use it, but now it's like a magnet for her. Fuahahah. >:3
It's just the mood of the season, I think. My kids officially survive their first year of life at the end of the month, good for them. I officially survive twenty six years of life in December, good for me. The celebration of my homeland is in Mid November, hoorah. Riku gets older, but don't tell him I told you, awesome and shit. Christmas and New Year's at the end of it all, fan-fucking-tastic.
Still, had my accident in November, lost my eye and my grandmother the NEXT November, Hope died last year in December, Kerrigan died in December, and... well... it's just a depressing time of year. That, and I'm worried about two things...
Dilan isn't nearly as active as he should be. He's real lazy and shit, right? That may just be his personality (god I hope not) but that's also a reeeeaaaally good indicator that the poor kid inherited my grandmother's heart disease. He's not old enough to say, "Mommy, my chest hurts" or "Daddy, I can't breathe" but he can refuse to do much of anything. I hadn't noticed it at first, but when Granddad stopped by to visit while on a business trip, he pointed it out. I hope it's just two protective men worrying over laziness, but just to be sure, I'm taking him home to Radiant Garden in two weeks to have him checked out. I'd rather catch it now and do something about it before it cripples him at a young age, or just rest well at night knowing he's getting his Couch Potato years out of the way early.
The other thing bothering me is this giant fucking THING growing beside my eye. Okay, it's not GIANT, but it sure feels like it. It's probably the size of a pea or something, if I'm as good at this as I like to think myself. It's horrifically painful and it keeps making me tear up. Where it is, I can only move my eye a certain direction either way, so not only is my vision now limited to a significantly small area of space, it's also blurry and watery, and in the best interest of everyone on the road I'm at the mercy of walking and friends and family to get me places. That said, thanks everyone!
And a note of advice for all of you out there... if you're like me and when depressed, suffer from bouts of compulsive buying, stick to purchasing guns or cars or whatever... not genital piercings. Certainly not MORE genital piercings. I can't tell what my dick looks like more- a ladder with metal rungs and a bell at the top, or the most phallic Christmas tree in the world. At least the lady likes it. She made me pay for the six weeks of not being able to use it, but now it's like a magnet for her. Fuahahah. >:3