[Email Response]femme_savageNovember 26 2009, 23:06:16 UTC
I shall think no more on it. You and your strange foreign holidays... :P
And good job on the sheet front.
Okay, here goes: your attitude has started to piss me off. Like, hardcore piss me off. I know things are troubling you but you're sitting there saying fuck all and it agitates the living hell out of me. You want to marry me and yet you tell me NOTHING about what's bothering you, but expect everyone around you to tell you everything that's going on all the damn time. Part of a relationship is sharing, and you're sharing nothing. I know, I didn't explain right away that that was the reason I walked, but I tell you everything that's going on with me otherwise.
So yes, I walked because you need to decide what it is you want: a relationship and everything that goes with it? Or more time to find yourself by yourself? I don't want a single petty excuse from you, I just want an answer. Not a "yes, I want to be with you" answer, an answer that explains what in the world is going on with you. You're under the deluded impression that you've been carrying this burden, whatever it is, by yourself but you haven't; I've been dealing with it too, but I don't know what it is. So enlighten me, for fuck's sake.
I'll come back when you can be more open with me. Maybe not 100% open, but at least above 20%, which is what you are right now. I'm not your shrink, I'm your partner. So freaking talk to me. That's what I'm here for.
[Email Response]ixarms_reloadxiNovember 26 2009, 23:29:09 UTC
Yeah, yeah, make me feel even less comfortable with it all. :P Little Gracie and I will just celebrate by ourselves with turkey sammiches and pie.
... I'm sorry. I don't even know what to say, except sorry... everyone I normally share my troubles with have their own troubles to deal with. Riku has a sick Demyx, and his own issues... you've got restless nights dealing with the kids (I can change diapers and lull them to sleep for you, but I can't help with the breast feeding thing. :P) and I haven't heard from Kyrstin in a long time. But that shouldn't matter, you know? I'm just over a week away from 25. I should be able to deal with my problems on my own. I shouldn't have to rely on others to deal with them for me. I'm not a child anymore. I'm a father, I'm nearing the end of my schooling, I'm in a good job. I need to start acting like it.
More rambling. I'm sorry. I promise I'll work on being more open. You may have to pry a bit to remind me, but I promise I'll open up. ♥
And good job on the sheet front.
Okay, here goes: your attitude has started to piss me off. Like, hardcore piss me off. I know things are troubling you but you're sitting there saying fuck all and it agitates the living hell out of me. You want to marry me and yet you tell me NOTHING about what's bothering you, but expect everyone around you to tell you everything that's going on all the damn time. Part of a relationship is sharing, and you're sharing nothing. I know, I didn't explain right away that that was the reason I walked, but I tell you everything that's going on with me otherwise.
So yes, I walked because you need to decide what it is you want: a relationship and everything that goes with it? Or more time to find yourself by yourself? I don't want a single petty excuse from you, I just want an answer. Not a "yes, I want to be with you" answer, an answer that explains what in the world is going on with you. You're under the deluded impression that you've been carrying this burden, whatever it is, by yourself but you haven't; I've been dealing with it too, but I don't know what it is. So enlighten me, for fuck's sake.
I'll come back when you can be more open with me. Maybe not 100% open, but at least above 20%, which is what you are right now. I'm not your shrink, I'm your partner. So freaking talk to me. That's what I'm here for.
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... I'm sorry. I don't even know what to say, except sorry... everyone I normally share my troubles with have their own troubles to deal with. Riku has a sick Demyx, and his own issues... you've got restless nights dealing with the kids (I can change diapers and lull them to sleep for you, but I can't help with the breast feeding thing. :P) and I haven't heard from Kyrstin in a long time. But that shouldn't matter, you know? I'm just over a week away from 25. I should be able to deal with my problems on my own. I shouldn't have to rely on others to deal with them for me. I'm not a child anymore. I'm a father, I'm nearing the end of my schooling, I'm in a good job. I need to start acting like it.
More rambling. I'm sorry. I promise I'll work on being more open. You may have to pry a bit to remind me, but I promise I'll open up. ♥
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