[1 New Text Message]blackstar_keyJune 30 2010, 21:01:19 UTC
Brother. I need to ask your advice. I wouldn't ask unless it was really important, but you're one of the few people I trust without doubt or question and I need some wisdom right now.
I need to know if Eleanor Roosevelt was right when she said that no one can make you feel inferior without your consent. Otherwise, I'm probably just as bad a person as he's making me feel.
I'm not a people person; I'm difficult to get to know, I know that, but I'm trying what I can with this Zidane guy and I feel that all I get back are veiled insults. I'm my own worst critic and I know I have a dozen and a half flaws to my name, but if he's anything to go by, I didn't know I had that many.
So, the question is can a person make you feel incompetent, useless and inferior? And should I keep trying to get to know this guy when I feel like he's sending me mixed messages?
... I honestly think you'd be better off asking my better half about that sort of thing. But, in my honest opinion, I think Roosevelt was full of shit. The only people who don't feel bad when people say bad things are people who completely fail to grasp the harsh reality that is life. If you have the ability to truly not give a fuck what anyone says about you, then you're either a hermit or a retard... and not one of those cute guys with autism or whatever, but one of those ones that CHOOSES to be retarded. You know what I mean
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I'm the first person to admit I suck. I do insult easy and I have a short fuse. I don't know many people who can't point to themselves and say "I do this wrong" or "this is what I don't like about me". I don't know what it is, but he pushes so many of my goddamn buttons, it's not even funny.
Everyone just tells me "try harder" or "he's going through a hard time", like no one else has ever endured anything and like it's always my fault we clash like we do. Yeah, I'm difficult and stubborn, but fucking hell, he is too!
You and I have common chemistry, even if we have butted heads. Besides, I love your pimp face too much to be mad at you for too long. I have got nothing in common with this guy that he's willing to share. I find out he's gotten involved with this King guy (he's a little long-winded, but he's never been anything but polite to me), figured it would be some common ground to discuss something on and it basically goes into a wall. I can accept that he doesn't want my help, I probably wouldn't want my help either, but I
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I would if there was actually any reason to cut myself slack. And besides, you've never cut yourself any slack in your life, so can you really tell me to do what you won't? :P
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I'm not allowed to cut myself slack. I'm a surgeon, a tactical EMT, still able to be pulled back into military sniping. I'm a father, I've got a little seven year old and two little babies, and I've got a future wife, all of whom depend on me to take care of them ('cept for Larxene. She doesn't need me, she just kinda has me around for decoration, I guess :P). I don't have room for slack! You on the other hand... everyone you deal with can fend for themselves. Including the fish, they've been doing that for billions of years! ... well, maybe Demyx needs you, he's pretty useless on his own. :P And I'm not HALF as hard on myself as you are on you. CHILL THE FUCK OUT, BRO
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I don't think he's so much willing as faced with no other alternative... even then, he'd sooner die than call me. Which I think he might... but meh. I was going to text him back earlier, but I fell asleep. I sleep a lot lately, gotta admit! I think the drugs make me drowsy... May go for a nap in a second... And what have I got on my hands except World Cup semi-finals? It's not exactly easy to pry their asses off the couch when soccer is on!
Wow, we've gotten boring... think we need to blow something up?
That's just how you roll...!
Ugh, time for sleep... getting hard to stay awake...
Hey, -I- know that. He doesn't! All he knows about you is what others say and talk about. He doesn't know Riku and Riku's boys. Besides, you're pretty useless with that arm. So what's this world cup thing? Hunter keeps freaking out about it. It's just soccer.
Boring indeed. We're going on a safari, I dunno what you're doing. Tell ya what- Independence day for RG is tomorrow. Lex and I are gonna be barbecuing and setting off fireworks. Come join the fun! You and I'll have a Roman Candle fight.
Oh boy, dozed off for a little while there... that needs to stop happening...
Hey, I've done more with worse injuries. You were there! Besides, it doesn't feel as bad as it did a few weeks ago. I can use it as a club? Besides, I shoot better with my left.
As for soccer... like I freaking know. It's a big tournament, loads of nations are taking part and the big guns aren't playing all that well. It's got the guys in a frenzy.
A safari? I bet Hunter is happy about that! Got conned into the family vacation by the she-bitch? She's got your nuts, man! And yeah, if I can stay awake long enough, I'll come singe your hair with a Roman Candle!
Are you sure you're dozing, and not blacking out? Having a reaction to your medication?
Don't do that! You'll smash it against something and do more damage! The cast is a protector- not a weapon!
All I know is that a bunch of people keep trying to imitate the stuff they see in the matches, and that lands a lot of people in the emergency OR. I get to dig into them though! Fuahah!
Not conned! I was the one that suggested it. More like I conned her. :P She THINKS she has me figured out! Ahahaha! We're doing it in the afternoon. I've got work that morning.
If you consider breaking your arm again to be fun, then have at it! Geeze, you and Hunter both... wanting to run out and play soccer with his friends only two days after spraining his ankle... You're a bad influence on mah boy! You're lucky you're cute or I wouldn't let you near him. :P
Uh, sure, but when I get woken up at three in the morning to fix a ruptured organ for the eighth time that week, it gets annoying! You remember that hospital we broke out of? The one I used to work at? Yeah, they had an opening. It's a different department, so I was allowed leniency with the whole "Attendance Issue" issue.
Right... so, if I say I'm not blacking out and I'm not falling asleep, what would you say to me...? I "fell asleep" and woke up down by the university with my phone in my hand and these weirdly and agitatingly scathing comments from Zidane. And I have no idea where they came from.
I really don't like being glued to one place...
I'm pretty sure people don't rupture organs playing soccer, no matter the stunt... torn muscles and tendons, yes, but not ruptured internal organs... sounds like someone's started up a Fight Club or something...
Tell tale signs of everyone's favorite psychosis mascot, yeah? Do I need to come over there and lay the bitch hand upside him until you both pass out?
Well, neither do I, but if you sit and behave then you'll heal faster and not have to stay there so long!
Fight Clubs exist already. There's tons of them around here. We've tried taking them out and down, but it's no use. They just find another place and start up again and the search continues.
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I'm not a people person; I'm difficult to get to know, I know that, but I'm trying what I can with this Zidane guy and I feel that all I get back are veiled insults. I'm my own worst critic and I know I have a dozen and a half flaws to my name, but if he's anything to go by, I didn't know I had that many.
So, the question is can a person make you feel incompetent, useless and inferior? And should I keep trying to get to know this guy when I feel like he's sending me mixed messages?
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Everyone just tells me "try harder" or "he's going through a hard time", like no one else has ever endured anything and like it's always my fault we clash like we do. Yeah, I'm difficult and stubborn, but fucking hell, he is too!
You and I have common chemistry, even if we have butted heads. Besides, I love your pimp face too much to be mad at you for too long. I have got nothing in common with this guy that he's willing to share. I find out he's gotten involved with this King guy (he's a little long-winded, but he's never been anything but polite to me), figured it would be some common ground to discuss something on and it basically goes into a wall. I can accept that he doesn't want my help, I probably wouldn't want my help either, but I ( ... )
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I don't think he's so much willing as faced with no other alternative... even then, he'd sooner die than call me. Which I think he might... but meh. I was going to text him back earlier, but I fell asleep. I sleep a lot lately, gotta admit! I think the drugs make me drowsy... May go for a nap in a second... And what have I got on my hands except World Cup semi-finals? It's not exactly easy to pry their asses off the couch when soccer is on!
Wow, we've gotten boring... think we need to blow something up?
That's just how you roll...!
Ugh, time for sleep... getting hard to stay awake...
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Hey, -I- know that. He doesn't! All he knows about you is what others say and talk about. He doesn't know Riku and Riku's boys. Besides, you're pretty useless with that arm. So what's this world cup thing? Hunter keeps freaking out about it. It's just soccer.
Boring indeed. We're going on a safari, I dunno what you're doing. Tell ya what- Independence day for RG is tomorrow. Lex and I are gonna be barbecuing and setting off fireworks. Come join the fun! You and I'll have a Roman Candle fight.
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Oh boy, dozed off for a little while there... that needs to stop happening...
Hey, I've done more with worse injuries. You were there! Besides, it doesn't feel as bad as it did a few weeks ago. I can use it as a club? Besides, I shoot better with my left.
As for soccer... like I freaking know. It's a big tournament, loads of nations are taking part and the big guns aren't playing all that well. It's got the guys in a frenzy.
A safari? I bet Hunter is happy about that! Got conned into the family vacation by the she-bitch? She's got your nuts, man! And yeah, if I can stay awake long enough, I'll come singe your hair with a Roman Candle!
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Don't do that! You'll smash it against something and do more damage! The cast is a protector- not a weapon!
All I know is that a bunch of people keep trying to imitate the stuff they see in the matches, and that lands a lot of people in the emergency OR. I get to dig into them though! Fuahah!
Not conned! I was the one that suggested it. More like I conned her. :P She THINKS she has me figured out! Ahahaha! We're doing it in the afternoon. I've got work that morning.
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You ruin all the fun stuff!
Then you should have no problem with it. It keeps business rolling, am I right? And how in hell's name did you get an employer?
With me and my penchant for napping, I'll try my best to be awake for it. If not, come round and drag my ass out.
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If you consider breaking your arm again to be fun, then have at it! Geeze, you and Hunter both... wanting to run out and play soccer with his friends only two days after spraining his ankle... You're a bad influence on mah boy! You're lucky you're cute or I wouldn't let you near him. :P
Uh, sure, but when I get woken up at three in the morning to fix a ruptured organ for the eighth time that week, it gets annoying! You remember that hospital we broke out of? The one I used to work at? Yeah, they had an opening. It's a different department, so I was allowed leniency with the whole "Attendance Issue" issue.
I will! Bring your wife with you. :P
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I really don't like being glued to one place...
I'm pretty sure people don't rupture organs playing soccer, no matter the stunt... torn muscles and tendons, yes, but not ruptured internal organs... sounds like someone's started up a Fight Club or something...
Hah, my wife...! He'll love that!
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Well, neither do I, but if you sit and behave then you'll heal faster and not have to stay there so long!
Fight Clubs exist already. There's tons of them around here. We've tried taking them out and down, but it's no use. They just find another place and start up again and the search continues.
Tell him Xiggy sent it. ;3
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