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[iwuvpenguins]

so wow!! i'm full of this teen angst, i hate the world, no one likes me kinda thing and i can't figure out why. it's the suckage!!! it just really doesn't make since to me! i'm having so much fun with drumline, they are AMAZING and this next year's gonna be awesome. and today i went to a movie with my mom and had a whole lot of fun and then tonight i'm doing more stuff with the best people ever (drumline) and still i feel really lonely. i keep thinking about someone that i shouldn't be thinking about. i'm over him, i'm even fucking pissed off at him and everything he's done to me, but i can't stop thinking about how i wish it could go back the way it was. when i wasn't pissed at him (even though i'm sure he's not even aware of the fact that he's royally fucked up any friendship i could've had with him) and he wasn't such a jerk. i guess i just hate letting go of the past... moving on, synod's coming up and i get to see all of my presby friends that have no idea what's going on at home so i can just hang loose and have fun!! i'm so excited!! these are the best people to be around when i'm feeling like this... which i hate feeling like, it's shit!! so anyways, i'm sure i'll pull out of it soon, i mean hey, i'm 17, my moods are supossed to go up and down, i just hate being the whiny bitch that i'm being right now... you just sometimes have to vent

P.S>- i got a xanga so i'll be going back and forth between the two: http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=iplaybass3