megan dear - IT FLOWS. flows nicely. don't you know? aunt flow, the symbol of our womanhood cloaked in embarrassment. flowing free form like speech we can't ever get off our chests, because hey the only thing anyone is looking at are our chests. it's high school. that's right, high as a kite where everybody loves to live off of mommy and daddy's buck so they can fuck all of the pretty little girls bleaching their hair so they too can look pretty. beauty. it's that thing on the front of magazines. didn't you know? it only comes if you fit this size, this form, this level of intelligence. brains. what are those? oh, i'm sorry dear we only accept mastercard, visa, or discover here. but if you wait a second i can consult the manual and tell you what to do for that awful awful look. look, i'm sorry, there's not much we can do - daddy's out spending on his platinum for the platinum blonde highlights of our lives. cheap. it's that feeling of life. dirty. that's what you're called if you're different. if you dance different. if you can't flow
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Dear Confused and Pessimistic AdolescentuniquelyuntitldDecember 29 2003, 17:52:21 UTC
A wise woman once quoted a song for me and at the time it meant nothing. Just some obscure poem i hadn't heard of but it had more meaning than that. "I came upon a doctor who appeared in quite poor health. I said, "there's nothing i can do for you you can't do for yourself." He said, "Oh yes you can just hold my hand and I think that that would help." So I sat with him a while and then asked him how he felt. He said, "I think I'm cured. No in fact I'm sure of it. Thank you stranger for your therapeutic smile." Thank you for your therapeutic smile. I felt the same way last year about this time, but the way I got out of this shitty cycle was to fall in love for a few months. This kept me preoccupied and you should try it
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How emotionalist Megan. I too have found myself recently pondering the meaning of live. I admire those who are sure of who they are as a person, and a life. Because I certainly don't know. I think you eventually grow up, and understand it or accept it. I haven't myself a clue, it's very junvinelle to me, to wonder your place in the world. but certainly everyone must wonder this at one time or anouther. I often find myself questioning not the point of my life, but the point of everyone's. If I die it will affect my family and friends, but if everything on this planet dies, who will it affect. Will it even matter? Why would it? I guess that's really my question. But to sit idly and brood over something that doesn't really have an answer is pointless. Find something you love to do and do it. It's much easier and will keep you from the frustration of it all. Find someone to admire, ask them their answer. And if there isn't an answer for everything in life, maybe it's best we don't know why. -ariel-
I guess now that I really think about it. The point of it all is to live for each other. When I was a kid I was learning about the universe and the infinity of space, so I said to my mom. "I'm so pointless. I'm just this tiny spect of dust." To which she replied, "well, your everything to me". ~ariel~
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It runs in the family pretty baby.
xoxo<3amac
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